♥
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
sometimes i really wonder, is it me or not? wat the hell r wrong wif all de guys dat i fall in love with? y do they like to do disappearing act or smthg like dat? cant they juz b frank n tell me wat's goin on in their mind? isnt not saying a gal's behaviour? but wateva it is, out u guys, outta sight, outta mind.. please dun mess wif me, i'm no longer one to b trifled wif anymore.. for i've lost all trust to u guys.. or mayb i'm juz stupid enuff to trust wateva u guys said.. i'm angry yes but not upset.. or mayb i'm upset cuz y am i always de one dat's being treated like a fool? but wateva it is.. i wun let u guys mess wif my life.. i've my life to lead, i've my goals to achieve n i'm planning for a better future but a future without u losers.. well mayb u guys r not de losers.. but juz a future wif no guys planned in it.. well or mayb there r some guys in it but not those like i wanna treat as my prince charming but later good frenz whom i can confide in.. ultimately if i wanna leave, i need new frenz right though i know i'll miss all my frenz here.. but i'll promise u guys, i'll b back.. i will nvr leave sg for good unless i planned to settle somewhere else wif someone special but trust me, based on de way i go, i doubt i'll ever find a good man.. haha.. be it wif man.. i dun need them.. they probably only provide de sensual part of life but i dun see myself needing them.. if u r talking abt love.. heck!! i've got tons of them frm all my frenz n families.. anywae i'm coming up wif a new plan.. to cycle to work soon.. guess i need to work on certain stuff like getting my helmet as mine apparently was spoilt n had gone down de bin pretty some time back.. need is to get another lock.. i better lock all my wheels & frame in case someone decides to steal either or both of it since i tink de only plc i can park my bike would b somewhere far frm my eyes.. mayb i shld juz take any lousy bike n cycle there.. hehe! next i need to plan my route.. lastly of cuz is how long i will need to take to work + showering time.. i wanna smell nice n feel fresh b4 i start work.. hopefully in time to come, i'm back to my sporting arena.. i feel so lethargic without sports n i get tired easily.. i used to look fresh throughout all de shift at work be it start or de end but now : dun talk abt end of work.. some of colleagues think dat i looked tired even b4 work.. dat's terrible.. N DEFINITELY IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE ALL THESE, I MUST CUT DOWN ON CLUBBING.. believe me, trust me, i'm trying really hard.. mayb i shld juz take up some hip hop classes n hopefully i can join de grp for some performance.. i guess i found a new love.. dancing.. mayb i shld try all kind of dancing including break dancing but hopefully i dun break any bones.. but wat de heck is breaking a bone to me since i've broken many before.. hehs.. oh yah n lastly b4 i forgot, my dear brother adrian is coming back but too bad his gf cant come otherwise i can play host to her n return her de favour.. hehs.. LOVE U GUYS (n sorry i only meant my frenz but well if u consider urself my fren, well dat's fine, i love u too..)
♥
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
welcome to 2008.. there's so many things in 2007 that i wanna share wif everyone.. there's all my frenz, all new or old dat i wanna thank each n everyone for making every moment of my life special.. thanks all for frenz for poisoning or flooding me wif sweet & bitter memories.. guess it's time i do some reflections..
Jan: I finally get started back on work after my accident.. it had been a near death experience but definitely smthg dat made me treasure my life alot.. treasuring life is one thing but i still believe in enjoying my life and doing things i wanna do so i wont leave de world wif regrets, i can imagine dat to b a torture.. anywae back to work, it wasnt easy to get started based on de speed i walked & de amt of workload, i thot i wont survived but tks to all my appreciating colleagues, they helped me so much, it's to de extend dat i felt useless and too relient on pple.. but utimately i survived thru dat stage..
feb-may: guess this is a nothing really interesting mths, wait a min, mayb it was juz this little bit of interesting stuff and mayb heartbreaking moments.. started school.. it was a bad time.. had some relationship problem, mayb not some juz this one but one dat really made me learn my lesson n one dat make me realise dat i've got some many frenz who cared for me.. seriously, it took me 3 times before i finally seen de light.. a really hard lesson learnt.. i cant imagine someone to actually make used of my feelings for them, i've been very true abt my feelings but y cant everyone b? well guess, dat's de imperfection in this world..
june: started work in micu, a total change.. different kind of busy.. pretty tough but still managed to survive.. met quite a number of wonderful new colleagues, they were so nice.. :)
jul: to b exact, last wk of june till first wk of july, probably one of de best in de yr.. had a wonderful holiday in aust wif liz & adrian n met a nice gal - jasmine (adrian's gf).. i really love de cold weather n i really like aust.. oh yeah, first time in my life i saw snow n it was very heartwarming cuz liz was der too.. dat's de good part.. came 22nd of jul, death of my fren ian.. it was very hard for me to accept n believe..
anywae second half of de year hasnt been fantastic.. tink i was suffering frm depression so bad till i was like clubbing every other nite, getting drunk home most of de time.. got everyone worried.. felt really bad abt it.. my other buddy mel too was depressed.. it was really difficult for both of us when we r like pillar to each other trying to comfort each other, pretending to b stronger than each other, trying to make each other feel better.. it was really pathetic.. but thank god we managed to survived thru.. sometimes i really wonder if our hearts r linked cuz when i felt better so was her.. weird but doesnt matter as long as we feel better.. but seriously second half of de year was really bad.. having 3 frenz passed away on 23rd nov, my national heros.. i missed them alot esp jeremy.. till now i dun feel dat they r not ard mayb cuz we dun see each other very often but i believe their families must b very lonely without them.. jeremy, reuben & boon san, i'm gonna miss u guys so much so much.. guess i've got alot to achieve this year including spending more time wif family & frenz.. i better do my time management properly.. anywae i'm glad to haf spend counting down for xmas n new year wif my frenz.. oh definitely not forgetting dat i'm finally falling in love again but i hope he's not gonna b de one dat will break my heart again.. if he really does, i'm really leaving here for good.. oh yah, i forgot abt me not getting into adv dip so i'm planning a new career path.. aust or uk - wait for me.. unless i decided to get myself a new commitment in sg, guess i haf a few mths or mayb a few wks to keep in view.. :)
here comes to de main point of this blog.. my new year resolution..
1) get back to shape: guess i've put on some weight recently so it's a good excuse to make myself back on track.. i wanna do more races this year n esp my adv racing.. miss those days sporting days..
2) career path: stay in sg or to leave.. stay in sg - apply for next adv dip intake.. leave for sg - where do i wanna go? uk? aust? where would b a better option?
3) financial: definitely cannot forget abt this.. this is to provide more comfort in life.. hehs.. of cuz is to make more money.. need to find more option rather than juz having one job n mayb slogging to earn dat money..
4) lastly: to find my prince who loves me more than i do.. hehs.. dat shld b happily ever after..
♥ princ3ss_di ♥
a DeViL iN an AnGeL dIsgUiSe..
"you put the pink back in the sky,
you insert the rainbow in my eyes,
you're that silver lining in my prayer,
painting colours everywhere."
diplomatic and urbane
romantic and charming
easygoing and sociable
idealistic and peaceable
indecisive and changeable
gullible and easily infuenced
flirtatious and self-indulgent
LIKES
♥The finer things in life
♥Sharing
♥conviviality
♥Gentleness
DISLIKES
-Violence
-Injustice
-Brutishness
-Being a slave to fashion
♥
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
sometimes i really wonder, is it me or not? wat the hell r wrong wif all de guys dat i fall in love with? y do they like to do disappearing act or smthg like dat? cant they juz b frank n tell me wat's goin on in their mind? isnt not saying a gal's behaviour? but wateva it is, out u guys, outta sight, outta mind.. please dun mess wif me, i'm no longer one to b trifled wif anymore.. for i've lost all trust to u guys.. or mayb i'm juz stupid enuff to trust wateva u guys said.. i'm angry yes but not upset.. or mayb i'm upset cuz y am i always de one dat's being treated like a fool? but wateva it is.. i wun let u guys mess wif my life.. i've my life to lead, i've my goals to achieve n i'm planning for a better future but a future without u losers.. well mayb u guys r not de losers.. but juz a future wif no guys planned in it.. well or mayb there r some guys in it but not those like i wanna treat as my prince charming but later good frenz whom i can confide in.. ultimately if i wanna leave, i need new frenz right though i know i'll miss all my frenz here.. but i'll promise u guys, i'll b back.. i will nvr leave sg for good unless i planned to settle somewhere else wif someone special but trust me, based on de way i go, i doubt i'll ever find a good man.. haha.. be it wif man.. i dun need them.. they probably only provide de sensual part of life but i dun see myself needing them.. if u r talking abt love.. heck!! i've got tons of them frm all my frenz n families.. anywae i'm coming up wif a new plan.. to cycle to work soon.. guess i need to work on certain stuff like getting my helmet as mine apparently was spoilt n had gone down de bin pretty some time back.. need is to get another lock.. i better lock all my wheels & frame in case someone decides to steal either or both of it since i tink de only plc i can park my bike would b somewhere far frm my eyes.. mayb i shld juz take any lousy bike n cycle there.. hehe! next i need to plan my route.. lastly of cuz is how long i will need to take to work + showering time.. i wanna smell nice n feel fresh b4 i start work.. hopefully in time to come, i'm back to my sporting arena.. i feel so lethargic without sports n i get tired easily.. i used to look fresh throughout all de shift at work be it start or de end but now : dun talk abt end of work.. some of colleagues think dat i looked tired even b4 work.. dat's terrible.. N DEFINITELY IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE ALL THESE, I MUST CUT DOWN ON CLUBBING.. believe me, trust me, i'm trying really hard.. mayb i shld juz take up some hip hop classes n hopefully i can join de grp for some performance.. i guess i found a new love.. dancing.. mayb i shld try all kind of dancing including break dancing but hopefully i dun break any bones.. but wat de heck is breaking a bone to me since i've broken many before.. hehs.. oh yah n lastly b4 i forgot, my dear brother adrian is coming back but too bad his gf cant come otherwise i can play host to her n return her de favour.. hehs.. LOVE U GUYS (n sorry i only meant my frenz but well if u consider urself my fren, well dat's fine, i love u too..)
♥
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
welcome to 2008.. there's so many things in 2007 that i wanna share wif everyone.. there's all my frenz, all new or old dat i wanna thank each n everyone for making every moment of my life special.. thanks all for frenz for poisoning or flooding me wif sweet & bitter memories.. guess it's time i do some reflections..
Jan: I finally get started back on work after my accident.. it had been a near death experience but definitely smthg dat made me treasure my life alot.. treasuring life is one thing but i still believe in enjoying my life and doing things i wanna do so i wont leave de world wif regrets, i can imagine dat to b a torture.. anywae back to work, it wasnt easy to get started based on de speed i walked & de amt of workload, i thot i wont survived but tks to all my appreciating colleagues, they helped me so much, it's to de extend dat i felt useless and too relient on pple.. but utimately i survived thru dat stage..
feb-may: guess this is a nothing really interesting mths, wait a min, mayb it was juz this little bit of interesting stuff and mayb heartbreaking moments.. started school.. it was a bad time.. had some relationship problem, mayb not some juz this one but one dat really made me learn my lesson n one dat make me realise dat i've got some many frenz who cared for me.. seriously, it took me 3 times before i finally seen de light.. a really hard lesson learnt.. i cant imagine someone to actually make used of my feelings for them, i've been very true abt my feelings but y cant everyone b? well guess, dat's de imperfection in this world..
june: started work in micu, a total change.. different kind of busy.. pretty tough but still managed to survive.. met quite a number of wonderful new colleagues, they were so nice.. :)
jul: to b exact, last wk of june till first wk of july, probably one of de best in de yr.. had a wonderful holiday in aust wif liz & adrian n met a nice gal - jasmine (adrian's gf).. i really love de cold weather n i really like aust.. oh yeah, first time in my life i saw snow n it was very heartwarming cuz liz was der too.. dat's de good part.. came 22nd of jul, death of my fren ian.. it was very hard for me to accept n believe..
anywae second half of de year hasnt been fantastic.. tink i was suffering frm depression so bad till i was like clubbing every other nite, getting drunk home most of de time.. got everyone worried.. felt really bad abt it.. my other buddy mel too was depressed.. it was really difficult for both of us when we r like pillar to each other trying to comfort each other, pretending to b stronger than each other, trying to make each other feel better.. it was really pathetic.. but thank god we managed to survived thru.. sometimes i really wonder if our hearts r linked cuz when i felt better so was her.. weird but doesnt matter as long as we feel better.. but seriously second half of de year was really bad.. having 3 frenz passed away on 23rd nov, my national heros.. i missed them alot esp jeremy.. till now i dun feel dat they r not ard mayb cuz we dun see each other very often but i believe their families must b very lonely without them.. jeremy, reuben & boon san, i'm gonna miss u guys so much so much.. guess i've got alot to achieve this year including spending more time wif family & frenz.. i better do my time management properly.. anywae i'm glad to haf spend counting down for xmas n new year wif my frenz.. oh definitely not forgetting dat i'm finally falling in love again but i hope he's not gonna b de one dat will break my heart again.. if he really does, i'm really leaving here for good.. oh yah, i forgot abt me not getting into adv dip so i'm planning a new career path.. aust or uk - wait for me.. unless i decided to get myself a new commitment in sg, guess i haf a few mths or mayb a few wks to keep in view.. :)
here comes to de main point of this blog.. my new year resolution..
1) get back to shape: guess i've put on some weight recently so it's a good excuse to make myself back on track.. i wanna do more races this year n esp my adv racing.. miss those days sporting days..
2) career path: stay in sg or to leave.. stay in sg - apply for next adv dip intake.. leave for sg - where do i wanna go? uk? aust? where would b a better option?
3) financial: definitely cannot forget abt this.. this is to provide more comfort in life.. hehs.. of cuz is to make more money.. need to find more option rather than juz having one job n mayb slogging to earn dat money..
4) lastly: to find my prince who loves me more than i do.. hehs.. dat shld b happily ever after..
