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Sunday, July 22, 2007
de crying scene of a mother & a daughter greeted me when i arrived in de hospital.. i felt funny but it didnt dwell on me much.. guess i haf seen too much of such scenes.. haf it turned me cold-hearted?saw two rooms screened when i arrived at de ward.. saw a few pple standing outside rm17.. i didnt bother to ask much.. while waiting for report to b passed.. one of my colleagues was passing remarks dat they were very busy in de nite.. they had like 2 deaths within a shift.. dat's really terrible.. but i was de least interested till she mentioned abt a 25 yr old patient in rm17 dat passed away because of dengue fever.. i was like tinking, it's really very young for a patient to pass away because of dengue fever.. de other colleagues got interested.. they asked her if de patient was frm a&e.. she replied no.. subsequently de conversion was just between de two of us..diana: de patient was not frm a&e?colleague: nope..d: where's de patient frm?c: transferred in..d: frm where?c: wd 73..d: r u serious?c: yup..d: de patient really frm wd73? came in for dengue fever? i haf a fren who was admitted in wd73 for dengue fever..c: is ur fren a male or female?d: male..c: is ur fren fat?d: he's quite big size..c: wat's ur fren's name?( my mind went blank for a moment.. wat's my fren's name?)d: ian..c: yah, his name is ian..d: u muz b kidding..this cannot b true.. it cannot b my fren.. this is too sudden.. i muz see him.. cannot b him.. went into de rm but de family members were saying their prayers for him.. his face was covered.. i cant see him.. is it really him? wat's ian's full name? this guy looks like ian.. (his bro) this is not true.. i was so shocked dat i was like trembling, not because i was cold but i was afraid of de truth.. i checked thru my admission book.. i found his details.. i called grace, grace didnt pick up.. i called sam, sam didnt pick up.. god, i'm left wif last option, fanny.. if she doesnt picked up as well, i haf no idea who i shld turn to.. i muz tell someone.. this news is too heart-breaking for me to handle.. i cant do it.. great, i finally got thru fanny, woke her up frm her slp.. was asking her for ian's full name instead i tink she gave me hers.. for a moment i was relieved, it's not ian's name.. so i checked wif her again.. wat's ian's full name? ian ng hsin ye.. omg.. does he stay in wilkinson rd? yes.. is he born on 28th august 1981? yes.. my heart sanked right to de bottom.. this cannot b.. it really cannot b him.. but somehow or another it's too much of a coincidence, isnt it? but still i haf to tell de truth.. ian has passed away this morning.. wat a devastating news in de morning before i even started work.. i cldnt focus.. i was trembling.. but i stil didnt believe it was ian.. i muz see him otherwise i wun believe it.. when i finally got de chance, i took a peek, omg it was ian wif de tube coming out of his mouth.. he doesnt look like him anymore.. is this really my fren ian? cannot b? where's de chatty ian? where's de ian dat will smile till de eyes only revealed a line? where's de ian dat will blushed when he talks abt esther? where's de ian dat encourage me when i met wif an accident? when i saw de mortuary team pushing a trolley in, i really wanna cry.. ian's leaving.. though i dun wanna c him leave but i wanna give a hand.. i helped my colleagues n i pushed him into de trolley.. i saw him leaving de ward.. i couldnt take it anymore.. i juz broke down.. though i'm not close wif him but somehow or another i've grown attached to sart.. i juz couldnt hold de tears back when my colleagues asked me abt him.. i wanna cry my heart out but i cant.. i'm at work.. damn, y muz i b at work.. y muz he die in my icu? y muz i b de first among de grp to receive his death? it's too devastating.. i replied sam's call after dat, de more we talked abt it, de more we cldnt help it n we both broke down.. it's too sudden for any of us to take..i spoke to ian last thurs.. he told me he's got suspected dengue n was tinking of which hospital to get admitted to if he really gets it.. i was like come sgh la.. i work der, easier for me to visit u.. he asked me where got more "piao liang" mei mei? of cuz sgh la.. den he told me alrite den i shall decide for sgh.. great.. received msg frm sam dat he got admitted to sgh last evening.. how bad can a dengue b so decided to visit him tdy.. morever i still msg him telling dat: "mr ian, u really went 2 sgh.. anywae how r u feeling? am working tmr, visit u tmr k.."shld haf called him since he didnt reply.. but it's too late now.. i'm sorry ian, mayb u shldnt haf come to sgh.. if u didnt come mayb it wasnt this bad.. mayb i'll still get to talk to u..spoke to Dr Elizabeth Oei.. she came to know it was my fren n she told me wateva has happen.. ian came in since morning.. he was resuscitated wif fluids when he was in a&e.. part of dengue fever management.. by de time he got to de ward, de mo dat reviewed him, somehow or another changed his drip regime.. by de time dr oei reviewed him was already 11plus.. he was already very ill.. she decided to bring him down to micu for closer monitoring.. bloods was taken on arrival.. it was horrendous.. LFT was hay-wired.. hematocrit and Hb were elevated.. platelets were low.. they started fluid resus for him again.. he felt better.. but at abt 3am, he complain of chest pain and he went down-hill very very fast.. de whole icu team resus him for 90mins till ian's aunt call it a day.. dr oei felt dat a dengue fever shldnt haf juz taken a 25yr old guy juz like dat.. she decided to put it as a coroner's case.. she was juz being impartial whether if he was given de rite amt of fluid, could it haf made a difference in his bld result? but everything is too late now.. ian is already gone.. i prayed for miracle but it didnt happen.. he's really gone.. but i really wanna know wat's de post-mortem diagnosis.. if he's really been mis-managed, i dun tink i wanna stay in a hospital dat took my fren's life away.. it's juz way too over-whelming for me.. i'm still trying to get over de death of ian.. goodbye ian, u'll b greatly missed by me.. de lord will take good care of u.. like wat sam said.. he has made plans for u.. may u rest in peace..
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Saturday, July 21, 2007
i'm upset by not my own prob but my buddy.. for i tink she has turned to someone dat i dun know.. someone i nvr thought would injure herself so dat someone dat she loves or care who turn around and take a look at her.. for dat i muz comment i havent come across a close fren of mine as silly as her.. this is de stupidest thing a gal should do to get her love back.. is it worth it? do u really tink he'll turn ard n take a look at u again? if really do, den in de first plc he shldnt haf allow u to hurt or injure urself.. u might not wan to live or watsoeva, but wateva u gonna do, take a good look ard urself.. how many pple ard u actually care abt u? de purpose of u injuring urself it's bcuz u wan him to look back at u.. but instead of achieving ur goal, subconciously, u haf hurt ur families & frenz dat r all ard u.. pls i beg u, promise me dat u'll nvr do anything dat stupid again.. i know u gonna go thru a very rough patch.. like wat i haf promised u b4, it's a promise i'll nvr break.. we r all gonna go thru this wif u, so fear not instead look ahead and i'm very sure u'll get out of this mess soon..
had a good dinner wif mel on thurs nite after lesson.. went humble hse n look for david.. after dinner we adjorned to new asia bar.. for a moment i thot i was in a foreign country.. it was packed wif ang mohs.. it doesnt matter to me.. was looking at de view frm way up der.. omg how i wish i can b der during ndp.. i'm sure i'll catch a good glimpse of de fireworks.. morever this yr, der's gonna b much more firework than before.. for a moment i'm really praying hard for a dream to come true.. i hoping to catch this magnificent moment wif someone whom i feel special for.. it's always very romantic to catch firework wif dat special someone.. but will it happen? well it might not happen now but i'm always hopeful for dat special moment to come.. to tink of it.. if dat special someone propose to me during a firework display, i guess without any hesistation i wld agree to dat proposal..it would probably b de happiest & most romantic moment in my life..
had cheese fondue wif jason & jasmine on fri nite.. met mel & france after dinner n by chance met anuar & gang..
i told my plan abt goin oversea to work to someone but this someone did not respect by decision of sharing this plan wif someone.. like i said it was juz a plan but he kinda announce it to everyone telling everyone dat i'm leaving.. but i haf yet to confirm.. utimately it's gonna b my decision.. mayb i might not wan to leave but u talking abt it really made me feel frustrated & irritated.. it was juz a plan.. a plan i dun mean to share wif many.. by chance tell u abt it and u asked me for more details.. oh my gosh.. i really dun know wat to say.. sometimes staying here really pushes me to de edge.. sometimes i feel dat i've got no room to breathe.. sometimes i feel frustrated but i haf noone to go to.. not dat i haf noone to go to but i dun like my trouble to b elses' one.. sometimes i wld rather myself to b upset than to c my families & frenz upset.. pls god teach me wat to do.. der always bound to haf changes to my plan.. does it mean dat i'm not focused enuff? wateva i'm doin, is it not good enuff? do i try to pls everyone too much? do i not love everyone enuff? but y do i feel upset or empty within myself sometimes? is it a better option dat i shld go? to a new plc, new environment and start all over again? frankly speaking, if i need to go, i probably wld haf left long time ago.. so wat's holding me back? families? frenz? i really dun know.. for a moment i'm confused now..
y when one is feeling down, she'll feel even more down? for dat's when all de sad moment starts floating up in her mind? nothing seems to b goin rite.. kinda stuck wif sch.. y of all time, i haf to fail two modules during my last semester? i feel really sucky having to go sch and re-doing my assignment.. re-sit for exams.. y when i'm very enthu to train, my coach became so busy? or is it something wrong wif him? y when i'm happy at my current home, my grandma muz tell me things mayb i shldnt haf know? y does one haf to give u faces when they r not happy wif u? y cant they juz tell u nicely? y muz they gimme attitude? did i do smthg wrong to deserve all these? if i do, pls let me know.. haf my behaviour or words upset anyone? if i do, pls tell me.. if u find it tiring for me to stay here, pls let me know.. for i dun wish to trouble pple.. if u dun like we share our stuffs, pls tell me.. for i'm glad not sharing.. if u dun like to talk to me or see me, pls tell me, i can jolly-well disappear into thin air.. y muz life b so complicated? y muz life b so difficult? y muz life b so messy? y muz life b so disappointing? y do i always feel miserable? y do i haf to wear a mask everyday? y do i find life torturing? y do i feel like so stressing? isnt der anythign dat i can do right? y do i get blame for smthg dat happen long time ago.. y do u haf to bring up de same old thing when we quarrel? y do u haf to bring up de past whenever we talk? does everyone do dat? y do human being need to quarrel? y cant human being juz live happily wif each other? y cant life juz b a little more near perfect? y do we haf to go through so much? is dat wat other always meant by experience? y muz we experience sadness and anger? cant it always b happiness? isnt it better?
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007
this is probably de second time since i started sch in SIM dat i'm so focused.. well or mayb cuz der's new goals in life dat i really wanna achieve.. guess it's my character.. de more someone says dat i cannot make it, de more i wanna prove them wrong.. two days after i got back frm aust, i receive de news dat i failed two of my degree modules.. there were both my research modules.. been tinking thru how can i possibly failing my last sem.. i seriously cant believe it.. after much thinking n to comfort myself.. all i can tink of it's dat i was at my lowest point in life.. depressed.. lack of focus.. killing my liver.. injuring myself (not exactly).. u would haf probably seen a diana u nvr met b4.. but i'm glad i managed to get out of this mess.. out of unplanned life.. unachieved goals.. unfocused.. wateva u can name it.. didnt party much except for twice.. once was to meet my colleagues.. de other was to celebrate tim's bday.. hope he had fun.. anywae it's bday tmr.. "Happy Birthday Tim".. u haf really been a great fren except dat can u dun ask me to party wif u so often.. tink we shld do smthg else.. i still wanna surpass u in wat u r doin.. haha.. been talking to my buddy alot recently.. i really hope she'll get out of this mess soon.. tink i'm partly responsible for it too.. i shldnt haf encourage her to follow her heart.. in de end somehow or another i hurt her n hurt her deeply.. but i nvr expected dat asshole to lift his hands on her.. he's worst than a beast, no words can describe his behaviour.. who de fuck he tink he is to lift his hands on her.. he really shld go n reflect on his behaviour.. she's not even his pet or watsoever.. for chris sake, someone pls guide this insecured boy.. who cant even differentiate between a gf & a pet or even a toy.. he's a big fucking egoistic guy.. i nvr despise or criticize a guy until like dat he's probably de first.. gal, i really u really will get out it fast... remember it's his loss not urs.. he's not worth of ur love or tears.. u r so pretty (inside & outside), i'm sure u'll find someone even better.. rite now i really hope u can focus on ur studies for u shld know better than me dat u cant afford to fail any modules.. remember i'm always der so r many of ur frenz.. i'm sure anyone of us r willing to help u tide thru this crisis n hopefully u haf really learn ur lesson.. wat u wan n shld get is someone who appreciate u, who loves u, who dotes u.. dat's wat princess is always looking for, juz like me.. :) if i cant find den i shall b single forever.. who cares.. i can b alone so i dun really need any guys.. so how or rather, life is juz so amazing.. things always happen when u least expected it.. like wat u said, well how wonderful it'll b dat two frenz can b together forever.. like wat i said b4.. we r emotionally well connected.. life wif u around has been amazing.. n i really wanna thank u for dat.. anywae hope our dreams will come true, let's work hard together for it.. remember to stay happy.. sometimes when i look into my bank account, i'm really very disappointed wif wat i haf done.. i gotta kick my habit of buying things.. haf been packing my stuffs recently.. realised dat i've got far too much rubbish.. including gifts dat i bought for my frenz.. cards i've written a yr ago, it's all still hanging in my drawer.. this is so amusing.. wateva, hope everything is still not too late.. i wanna lead a comfortable life in future so i gotta plan well for my future.. but meanwhile de very next goal i wanna achieve is to finish & graduate wif a degree.. once i'm done wif dat, i'll move on to getting into ccnc.. as for physically, i wanna do a standard chartered relay end of this yr wif a reasonable timing.. i wanna prove those who tinks dat i cant come back after my accident.. de more u despise me, de mor eu look down on me.. de more i wanna prove u wrong.. even though it's really hard to b as strong as b4, but given de will power i'm sure i'll b able to overcome all de pain & hurt dat's gonna come in wif training.. like wat pple always say "no pain, no gain" stop wasting time & move on.. which means i shld b back on my books now..
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
it's my first time to Australia,
de thot of leaving saddens me,
trip flooded wif memories,
both sweet & bad.
it's my first time to Blue Mountain,
magnificent views overwhelmed me,
holding on to each other,
dat's wat i seen on 'three sisters'.
it's my first time i saw snow,
on de journey to jenolan caves,
feeling it, touching it,
but it juz disappear within seconds.
it's my first time,
i felt so cold in my life,
but smiles on everyone,
simply melt my heart.
it's not my first time,
getting hurt over & over again,
utimately i'll still let go,
for i only wanna keep,
beautiful memories,
memories dat keep me happy,
and growing stronger day by day.
i wanna thank god,
for bringing each & everyone,
for filling up de missing puzzles,
for giving me all these experiences,
be it good or bad,
but this is where i learn abt life,
some things r meant to b kept,
while some r meant to let go.
MY FIRST TIME...
(it's not very poetic for i'm not a poet.. juz feel like writing it.. wrote it on my trip back to sydney after seeing blue mountain, rainbow & snows.. a moment full of feelings..)
can u imagine i havent been blogging for more than two weeks.. didnt expect dat pple haf been waiting to read my blog while i was in aust n how am i, enjoying myself, blah blah blah and things like dat.. indeed it was a trip i really enjoyed myself, thought alot of stuff, bring my focus back, readjusting my aims & goals.. a good trip.. a good break..
arrived in sydney on 23/6/07 @ nite.. was supposed to get out of customs and stuff faster but somehow or another i got stuck, officer checking on my passport, checking on wat i was doin here, how long i'll b here, where will i stay n things.. asking me for liz's no.. called liz n checking on her.. all this bcuz stupid me did smthg.. not anything serious though except dat i ticked de immigration card wrongly.. not only dat, i didnt even put liz's add in so kinda looked like a illegal immigrant in aust.. haha.. kinda cheesed off though.. anywae liz & carrod (liz's fren) picked me up frm sydney airport.. miss liz so much.. by de time i got out of airport was almost 9pm.. went n picked prema up.. oh god, havent seen her in ages, went for dinner at darlin harbour.. guess wat, initially i was tinking wat's wrong wif prema, de sounded so different, like she suddenly had short tongue.. only did i realised dat this naughty gal went n pierced her tongue.. ouch.. omg.. well as long as she likes it, nothing else matters.. hehs.. met liz's fren who was celebrating his bday at a pub, didnt really stay long.. not sure if it's cuz of jet-lag so i wasnt prepared to party or mayb i wasnt dressed up to party so headed back instead.. de weather was cold but i enjoyed every single bit of it..
24/6/07~went church wif liz.. her church frenz were all so friendly dat for a moment i felt like becoming a christian.. haha.. went to world square, nothing better else to do, went n do my hair.. did some treatment n had a haircut by de professional at toni & guy & spent almost AUD$200 there.. after which went and check out liz's new plc.. met victor, my polymate, dat was de moment i felt like working in sydney.. seems so much better than sg.. overloaded wif work in sg.. good point for consideration.. had dinner at pancakes n took some photos at some unknown plc where i could see both harbour bridge & opera house.. but didnt haf really good camera so couldnt get really nice pix, endede up taking ourselves.. haha.. "LA BEGGARS"
25/6/07~flew to gold coast.. adrian was der so early, de moment he arrived in gold coast he msg & called me while i was still slping on liz's bed.. haha.. anywae flight was delayed.. by de time i arrived at gold coast it was already like 3pm.. by de time i get to de hotel (courtyard mariotte - highly recommended if u r juz looking for a plc to rest wif magnificent sea view.. well dat's provided u request for high floors.. hehs.. :P) within de next few mins, it was dark.. catch some nap n went out for dinner.. it was really cold but so cold till i was so tempted n we had ice-cream for dessert.. imagine walking down de streets wif de cold wind blowing at ur face n having an ice cream.. though it was cold but dat's when i really appreciate ice cream.. hehs.. walk ard de streets to check out wat's ard de hotel.. all i can say is good location.. right smack in de central of all de shopping area.. hehs..
26/6/07~woke up to find dat it was drizzling outside but de rain nvr stop me frm doin anything.. decided to go ahead wif plan.. went to movie world.. spent de whole day der.. took quite a no of pix.. bought a couple of things.. nothing exciting.. except.. adrian & jasmine pulled me to take this water ride.. i didnt want to but they insisted.. i'm really afraid of heights.. i hate de feeling of "de heart dropping".. as usual,u can hear me screamed throughout de whole ride.. haha.. but i did enjoy myself.. was entertaining de duo wif my screams.. haha.. but den got ourselves all so wet.. not only were we wet.. we were so cold too.. by de end of de day, u can c our hair was wet frm de rain n water in de pix.. took some other rides too.. but nothing much.. went to Jupiters (casino) at nite.. first time i played roulette, juz to waste my money der only.. haha.. cuz i haf no idea how to really play it.. all iwas doin was simply putting my money on de table to get swoped.. haha..
27/6/07~de sun was bright & shining.. was supposed to go to dream world.. overslept.. haha.. late nite syndrome.. haha.. my first shopping day.. went to pacific fair.. the one n only plc where i bought lotsa stuff.. it was juz so hugh dat u can practically buy everything der.. no idea wat i bought n who i bought for.. all i can remember was by de end of de day i was carrying tons of paperbags.. wif lotsa stuff inside but mostly clothes.. SALES were all over de plc or shld i say all over australia.. haha.. wtd to go another shopping centre (cant remember wat it is called) but didnt expect de bus ride to b so long.. by de time we got der most of de shops were closed or shld i say all.. all dat was left were de eatery.. exactly wat we need.. food to replenish all de energy we spent during shopping.. not much choices.. end up wif pastas.. by de time we got back to hotel, drop dead tired.. not exactly oso but we needed de slp so dat we'll not oversleep again de next morning..
28/6/07~great weather, woke up on time, stayed wif wat was planned.. went dream world.. guess this was de plc where u can literally hear me screaming thruout.. visited de animal farm too.. de piggies were so cute.. so were de sheeps.. saw koalas & kangaroos.. took some rides.. de most exciting will b this one dat travels @ 160km/hr.. it juz zoom up to a certain height n drop by down.. let me remind u, it's within seconds.. like mayb 20s.. i was so scared.. scared de shit out of me.. was juz screaming throughout till i heard smone shouted.. "shut up".. haha.. u tink i care.. haha.. de other one dat i screamed de most was de 3d haunted house.. stupid adrain made me walked in front.. which means i haf to bring them round de corners where i get scared first.. i was so scared dat i could hardly move, so basically they were pushing me frm de back.. haha.. it was freezing when we left.. time passes really fast.. before we could even realised it was time for us to leave though by dat time i had already build up enough courage to sit all other rides but time didnt permit.. went back to de hotel.. took a rest & went jupiters at nite again.. but htis time i didnt play much.. dun wanna waste too much money gambling.. went back hotel first wif jasmine cuz both of us were bored n tired..
29/6/07~last min shopping b4 we head back to melbourne.. but i really love de glisterring beach of gold coast.. didnt had a chance to step to de beach, for sure i will go back again.. this time round not during winter.. haha.. MELBOURNE here i come.. stayed at adrian's plc.. went clubbing.. de one n only time.. kinda scary though.. de pple der were so aggressive.. so easy.. yucks.. haha.. didnt really enjoy it except for de music.. RnB rocks..
30/6/07~went shopping again in melbourne but this time round i didnt buy as much as i were in gold coast but i bought 3 pairs of boots.. haha.. crazy rite?! wateva man.. as long as i like n enjoy.. went crown casino at nite.. met adrian's frenz.. one of them were really cute.. if i remember correctly his name was tom.. but too bad he's attached.. haha.. saw two interesting scenes.. First scene: everyone flocks to de other end of de casino includings all de securities.. i wondered wat happen too.. though i wasnt really sure.. i saw one guy got punched in de eye.. de other lying motionless on de floor.. thought wat happen to him.. anywae he was ok but was brought away by de police.. wonder wat he did.. guess either he cheated or he stole money, u know stuff like dat.. Second scene: was gonna get some drink, den this drunkard fell rite in front of me, wat made matter worst was he knocked his head against de jackpot machine.. OUCH!!
1/7/07~was packing my luggage n waiting for de arrival of liz.. did nothing much..
2/7/07~this is one of my fav.. went puffy billy.. took de steam train.. damn nice.. de scenary, train ride.. it was quite short though, didnt quite get many nice pix here.. next was yarra valley (vineyard).. this was one of my fav plc.. de sky was clear.. de plc was beautiful for picture taking.. had lunch & some wine here.. took quite a no of good & nice pix here.. next was hensvale santuary.. sounds sophiscated but it was juz a zoo.. haha.. my pictures will tell all wat animal i saw der..
3/7/07~SYDNEY.. before i even realised, i'm due to go back home in a few days time.. time really flies.. juz when i'm about to enjoy myself.. anywae reach sydney quite late so didnt do anything much except for dinner n some fun over dinner.. cant help but juz had to disturb carrod.. haha.. u shld haf seen his irritated look, so funny.. haha..
4/7/07~visited my campus.. it's really big.. i like de castle looking sch.. went to somewhere near de sea.. took pix of de harbour bridge & opera house..
5/7/07~went blue mountain.. liz & me, we were both so under-dressed. freezing.. each had to buy a sweater.. temperature was like 5-9 degrees.. but de views were really good.. took de tram.. freaking hell, it was like sitting roller coaster.. it was so steep.. morever we took de front seats.. looked as if we were gonna fall into de forest anytime.. haha.. went to de jenolan caves after dat.. on our way up, guess wat i saw.. first it was rainbow.. de first time i saw rainbow so many times.. it was de same rainbow but frm different angle.. i could even catch a pix of it.. fantastic.. den i saw snow.. it was snowing.. both liz & mine, our first time dat we saw snow.. we were so excited.. haha.. had our lunch at jenolan caves.. de caves were amazing.. for them to do de tunnelling and enable pple to visit de caves, they were even more amazing.. but i really enjoyed myself - last day in sydney.. carrod took me & liz across de harbour bridge to de other side of sydney for a japanese crusine.. it was an early nite for me.. quite tired after all de touring.. but poor liz & carrod were packing stuff.. liz gotta move out of de hostel by next day..
6/7/07~it was time for me to return.. nearly cried at de airport wheni was about to leave.. wonder whether it was bcuz i'm leaving liz or whether if i dun wanna return to de reality.. anywae had abit of prob wif my luggage.. overweight.. cldnt help liz bring back her stuffs.. goodbye australia..
de moment i touched down, after i got home, i went out n meet tim, mel & david.. had a short nite.. juz chilling out n updating them abt my trip.. indeed and in fact a worthwhile trip away.. thanks to everyone who made my trip such a memorable one..
♥ princ3ss_di ♥
a DeViL iN an AnGeL dIsgUiSe..
"you put the pink back in the sky,
you insert the rainbow in my eyes,
you're that silver lining in my prayer,
painting colours everywhere."
diplomatic and urbane
romantic and charming
easygoing and sociable
idealistic and peaceable
indecisive and changeable
gullible and easily infuenced
flirtatious and self-indulgent
LIKES
♥The finer things in life
♥Sharing
♥conviviality
♥Gentleness
DISLIKES
-Violence
-Injustice
-Brutishness
-Being a slave to fashion
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
de crying scene of a mother & a daughter greeted me when i arrived in de hospital.. i felt funny but it didnt dwell on me much.. guess i haf seen too much of such scenes.. haf it turned me cold-hearted?saw two rooms screened when i arrived at de ward.. saw a few pple standing outside rm17.. i didnt bother to ask much.. while waiting for report to b passed.. one of my colleagues was passing remarks dat they were very busy in de nite.. they had like 2 deaths within a shift.. dat's really terrible.. but i was de least interested till she mentioned abt a 25 yr old patient in rm17 dat passed away because of dengue fever.. i was like tinking, it's really very young for a patient to pass away because of dengue fever.. de other colleagues got interested.. they asked her if de patient was frm a&e.. she replied no.. subsequently de conversion was just between de two of us..diana: de patient was not frm a&e?colleague: nope..d: where's de patient frm?c: transferred in..d: frm where?c: wd 73..d: r u serious?c: yup..d: de patient really frm wd73? came in for dengue fever? i haf a fren who was admitted in wd73 for dengue fever..c: is ur fren a male or female?d: male..c: is ur fren fat?d: he's quite big size..c: wat's ur fren's name?( my mind went blank for a moment.. wat's my fren's name?)d: ian..c: yah, his name is ian..d: u muz b kidding..this cannot b true.. it cannot b my fren.. this is too sudden.. i muz see him.. cannot b him.. went into de rm but de family members were saying their prayers for him.. his face was covered.. i cant see him.. is it really him? wat's ian's full name? this guy looks like ian.. (his bro) this is not true.. i was so shocked dat i was like trembling, not because i was cold but i was afraid of de truth.. i checked thru my admission book.. i found his details.. i called grace, grace didnt pick up.. i called sam, sam didnt pick up.. god, i'm left wif last option, fanny.. if she doesnt picked up as well, i haf no idea who i shld turn to.. i muz tell someone.. this news is too heart-breaking for me to handle.. i cant do it.. great, i finally got thru fanny, woke her up frm her slp.. was asking her for ian's full name instead i tink she gave me hers.. for a moment i was relieved, it's not ian's name.. so i checked wif her again.. wat's ian's full name? ian ng hsin ye.. omg.. does he stay in wilkinson rd? yes.. is he born on 28th august 1981? yes.. my heart sanked right to de bottom.. this cannot b.. it really cannot b him.. but somehow or another it's too much of a coincidence, isnt it? but still i haf to tell de truth.. ian has passed away this morning.. wat a devastating news in de morning before i even started work.. i cldnt focus.. i was trembling.. but i stil didnt believe it was ian.. i muz see him otherwise i wun believe it.. when i finally got de chance, i took a peek, omg it was ian wif de tube coming out of his mouth.. he doesnt look like him anymore.. is this really my fren ian? cannot b? where's de chatty ian? where's de ian dat will smile till de eyes only revealed a line? where's de ian dat will blushed when he talks abt esther? where's de ian dat encourage me when i met wif an accident? when i saw de mortuary team pushing a trolley in, i really wanna cry.. ian's leaving.. though i dun wanna c him leave but i wanna give a hand.. i helped my colleagues n i pushed him into de trolley.. i saw him leaving de ward.. i couldnt take it anymore.. i juz broke down.. though i'm not close wif him but somehow or another i've grown attached to sart.. i juz couldnt hold de tears back when my colleagues asked me abt him.. i wanna cry my heart out but i cant.. i'm at work.. damn, y muz i b at work.. y muz he die in my icu? y muz i b de first among de grp to receive his death? it's too devastating.. i replied sam's call after dat, de more we talked abt it, de more we cldnt help it n we both broke down.. it's too sudden for any of us to take..i spoke to ian last thurs.. he told me he's got suspected dengue n was tinking of which hospital to get admitted to if he really gets it.. i was like come sgh la.. i work der, easier for me to visit u.. he asked me where got more "piao liang" mei mei? of cuz sgh la.. den he told me alrite den i shall decide for sgh.. great.. received msg frm sam dat he got admitted to sgh last evening.. how bad can a dengue b so decided to visit him tdy.. morever i still msg him telling dat: "mr ian, u really went 2 sgh.. anywae how r u feeling? am working tmr, visit u tmr k.."shld haf called him since he didnt reply.. but it's too late now.. i'm sorry ian, mayb u shldnt haf come to sgh.. if u didnt come mayb it wasnt this bad.. mayb i'll still get to talk to u..spoke to Dr Elizabeth Oei.. she came to know it was my fren n she told me wateva has happen.. ian came in since morning.. he was resuscitated wif fluids when he was in a&e.. part of dengue fever management.. by de time he got to de ward, de mo dat reviewed him, somehow or another changed his drip regime.. by de time dr oei reviewed him was already 11plus.. he was already very ill.. she decided to bring him down to micu for closer monitoring.. bloods was taken on arrival.. it was horrendous.. LFT was hay-wired.. hematocrit and Hb were elevated.. platelets were low.. they started fluid resus for him again.. he felt better.. but at abt 3am, he complain of chest pain and he went down-hill very very fast.. de whole icu team resus him for 90mins till ian's aunt call it a day.. dr oei felt dat a dengue fever shldnt haf juz taken a 25yr old guy juz like dat.. she decided to put it as a coroner's case.. she was juz being impartial whether if he was given de rite amt of fluid, could it haf made a difference in his bld result? but everything is too late now.. ian is already gone.. i prayed for miracle but it didnt happen.. he's really gone.. but i really wanna know wat's de post-mortem diagnosis.. if he's really been mis-managed, i dun tink i wanna stay in a hospital dat took my fren's life away.. it's juz way too over-whelming for me.. i'm still trying to get over de death of ian.. goodbye ian, u'll b greatly missed by me.. de lord will take good care of u.. like wat sam said.. he has made plans for u.. may u rest in peace..
♥
Saturday, July 21, 2007
i'm upset by not my own prob but my buddy.. for i tink she has turned to someone dat i dun know.. someone i nvr thought would injure herself so dat someone dat she loves or care who turn around and take a look at her.. for dat i muz comment i havent come across a close fren of mine as silly as her.. this is de stupidest thing a gal should do to get her love back.. is it worth it? do u really tink he'll turn ard n take a look at u again? if really do, den in de first plc he shldnt haf allow u to hurt or injure urself.. u might not wan to live or watsoeva, but wateva u gonna do, take a good look ard urself.. how many pple ard u actually care abt u? de purpose of u injuring urself it's bcuz u wan him to look back at u.. but instead of achieving ur goal, subconciously, u haf hurt ur families & frenz dat r all ard u.. pls i beg u, promise me dat u'll nvr do anything dat stupid again.. i know u gonna go thru a very rough patch.. like wat i haf promised u b4, it's a promise i'll nvr break.. we r all gonna go thru this wif u, so fear not instead look ahead and i'm very sure u'll get out of this mess soon..
had a good dinner wif mel on thurs nite after lesson.. went humble hse n look for david.. after dinner we adjorned to new asia bar.. for a moment i thot i was in a foreign country.. it was packed wif ang mohs.. it doesnt matter to me.. was looking at de view frm way up der.. omg how i wish i can b der during ndp.. i'm sure i'll catch a good glimpse of de fireworks.. morever this yr, der's gonna b much more firework than before.. for a moment i'm really praying hard for a dream to come true.. i hoping to catch this magnificent moment wif someone whom i feel special for.. it's always very romantic to catch firework wif dat special someone.. but will it happen? well it might not happen now but i'm always hopeful for dat special moment to come.. to tink of it.. if dat special someone propose to me during a firework display, i guess without any hesistation i wld agree to dat proposal..it would probably b de happiest & most romantic moment in my life..
had cheese fondue wif jason & jasmine on fri nite.. met mel & france after dinner n by chance met anuar & gang..
i told my plan abt goin oversea to work to someone but this someone did not respect by decision of sharing this plan wif someone.. like i said it was juz a plan but he kinda announce it to everyone telling everyone dat i'm leaving.. but i haf yet to confirm.. utimately it's gonna b my decision.. mayb i might not wan to leave but u talking abt it really made me feel frustrated & irritated.. it was juz a plan.. a plan i dun mean to share wif many.. by chance tell u abt it and u asked me for more details.. oh my gosh.. i really dun know wat to say.. sometimes staying here really pushes me to de edge.. sometimes i feel dat i've got no room to breathe.. sometimes i feel frustrated but i haf noone to go to.. not dat i haf noone to go to but i dun like my trouble to b elses' one.. sometimes i wld rather myself to b upset than to c my families & frenz upset.. pls god teach me wat to do.. der always bound to haf changes to my plan.. does it mean dat i'm not focused enuff? wateva i'm doin, is it not good enuff? do i try to pls everyone too much? do i not love everyone enuff? but y do i feel upset or empty within myself sometimes? is it a better option dat i shld go? to a new plc, new environment and start all over again? frankly speaking, if i need to go, i probably wld haf left long time ago.. so wat's holding me back? families? frenz? i really dun know.. for a moment i'm confused now..
y when one is feeling down, she'll feel even more down? for dat's when all de sad moment starts floating up in her mind? nothing seems to b goin rite.. kinda stuck wif sch.. y of all time, i haf to fail two modules during my last semester? i feel really sucky having to go sch and re-doing my assignment.. re-sit for exams.. y when i'm very enthu to train, my coach became so busy? or is it something wrong wif him? y when i'm happy at my current home, my grandma muz tell me things mayb i shldnt haf know? y does one haf to give u faces when they r not happy wif u? y cant they juz tell u nicely? y muz they gimme attitude? did i do smthg wrong to deserve all these? if i do, pls let me know.. haf my behaviour or words upset anyone? if i do, pls tell me.. if u find it tiring for me to stay here, pls let me know.. for i dun wish to trouble pple.. if u dun like we share our stuffs, pls tell me.. for i'm glad not sharing.. if u dun like to talk to me or see me, pls tell me, i can jolly-well disappear into thin air.. y muz life b so complicated? y muz life b so difficult? y muz life b so messy? y muz life b so disappointing? y do i always feel miserable? y do i haf to wear a mask everyday? y do i find life torturing? y do i feel like so stressing? isnt der anythign dat i can do right? y do i get blame for smthg dat happen long time ago.. y do u haf to bring up de same old thing when we quarrel? y do u haf to bring up de past whenever we talk? does everyone do dat? y do human being need to quarrel? y cant human being juz live happily wif each other? y cant life juz b a little more near perfect? y do we haf to go through so much? is dat wat other always meant by experience? y muz we experience sadness and anger? cant it always b happiness? isnt it better?
♥
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
this is probably de second time since i started sch in SIM dat i'm so focused.. well or mayb cuz der's new goals in life dat i really wanna achieve.. guess it's my character.. de more someone says dat i cannot make it, de more i wanna prove them wrong.. two days after i got back frm aust, i receive de news dat i failed two of my degree modules.. there were both my research modules.. been tinking thru how can i possibly failing my last sem.. i seriously cant believe it.. after much thinking n to comfort myself.. all i can tink of it's dat i was at my lowest point in life.. depressed.. lack of focus.. killing my liver.. injuring myself (not exactly).. u would haf probably seen a diana u nvr met b4.. but i'm glad i managed to get out of this mess.. out of unplanned life.. unachieved goals.. unfocused.. wateva u can name it.. didnt party much except for twice.. once was to meet my colleagues.. de other was to celebrate tim's bday.. hope he had fun.. anywae it's bday tmr.. "Happy Birthday Tim".. u haf really been a great fren except dat can u dun ask me to party wif u so often.. tink we shld do smthg else.. i still wanna surpass u in wat u r doin.. haha.. been talking to my buddy alot recently.. i really hope she'll get out of this mess soon.. tink i'm partly responsible for it too.. i shldnt haf encourage her to follow her heart.. in de end somehow or another i hurt her n hurt her deeply.. but i nvr expected dat asshole to lift his hands on her.. he's worst than a beast, no words can describe his behaviour.. who de fuck he tink he is to lift his hands on her.. he really shld go n reflect on his behaviour.. she's not even his pet or watsoever.. for chris sake, someone pls guide this insecured boy.. who cant even differentiate between a gf & a pet or even a toy.. he's a big fucking egoistic guy.. i nvr despise or criticize a guy until like dat he's probably de first.. gal, i really u really will get out it fast... remember it's his loss not urs.. he's not worth of ur love or tears.. u r so pretty (inside & outside), i'm sure u'll find someone even better.. rite now i really hope u can focus on ur studies for u shld know better than me dat u cant afford to fail any modules.. remember i'm always der so r many of ur frenz.. i'm sure anyone of us r willing to help u tide thru this crisis n hopefully u haf really learn ur lesson.. wat u wan n shld get is someone who appreciate u, who loves u, who dotes u.. dat's wat princess is always looking for, juz like me.. :) if i cant find den i shall b single forever.. who cares.. i can b alone so i dun really need any guys.. so how or rather, life is juz so amazing.. things always happen when u least expected it.. like wat u said, well how wonderful it'll b dat two frenz can b together forever.. like wat i said b4.. we r emotionally well connected.. life wif u around has been amazing.. n i really wanna thank u for dat.. anywae hope our dreams will come true, let's work hard together for it.. remember to stay happy.. sometimes when i look into my bank account, i'm really very disappointed wif wat i haf done.. i gotta kick my habit of buying things.. haf been packing my stuffs recently.. realised dat i've got far too much rubbish.. including gifts dat i bought for my frenz.. cards i've written a yr ago, it's all still hanging in my drawer.. this is so amusing.. wateva, hope everything is still not too late.. i wanna lead a comfortable life in future so i gotta plan well for my future.. but meanwhile de very next goal i wanna achieve is to finish & graduate wif a degree.. once i'm done wif dat, i'll move on to getting into ccnc.. as for physically, i wanna do a standard chartered relay end of this yr wif a reasonable timing.. i wanna prove those who tinks dat i cant come back after my accident.. de more u despise me, de mor eu look down on me.. de more i wanna prove u wrong.. even though it's really hard to b as strong as b4, but given de will power i'm sure i'll b able to overcome all de pain & hurt dat's gonna come in wif training.. like wat pple always say "no pain, no gain" stop wasting time & move on.. which means i shld b back on my books now..
♥
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
it's my first time to Australia,
de thot of leaving saddens me,
trip flooded wif memories,
both sweet & bad.
it's my first time to Blue Mountain,
magnificent views overwhelmed me,
holding on to each other,
dat's wat i seen on 'three sisters'.
it's my first time i saw snow,
on de journey to jenolan caves,
feeling it, touching it,
but it juz disappear within seconds.
it's my first time,
i felt so cold in my life,
but smiles on everyone,
simply melt my heart.
it's not my first time,
getting hurt over & over again,
utimately i'll still let go,
for i only wanna keep,
beautiful memories,
memories dat keep me happy,
and growing stronger day by day.
i wanna thank god,
for bringing each & everyone,
for filling up de missing puzzles,
for giving me all these experiences,
be it good or bad,
but this is where i learn abt life,
some things r meant to b kept,
while some r meant to let go.
MY FIRST TIME...
(it's not very poetic for i'm not a poet.. juz feel like writing it.. wrote it on my trip back to sydney after seeing blue mountain, rainbow & snows.. a moment full of feelings..)
can u imagine i havent been blogging for more than two weeks.. didnt expect dat pple haf been waiting to read my blog while i was in aust n how am i, enjoying myself, blah blah blah and things like dat.. indeed it was a trip i really enjoyed myself, thought alot of stuff, bring my focus back, readjusting my aims & goals.. a good trip.. a good break..
arrived in sydney on 23/6/07 @ nite.. was supposed to get out of customs and stuff faster but somehow or another i got stuck, officer checking on my passport, checking on wat i was doin here, how long i'll b here, where will i stay n things.. asking me for liz's no.. called liz n checking on her.. all this bcuz stupid me did smthg.. not anything serious though except dat i ticked de immigration card wrongly.. not only dat, i didnt even put liz's add in so kinda looked like a illegal immigrant in aust.. haha.. kinda cheesed off though.. anywae liz & carrod (liz's fren) picked me up frm sydney airport.. miss liz so much.. by de time i got out of airport was almost 9pm.. went n picked prema up.. oh god, havent seen her in ages, went for dinner at darlin harbour.. guess wat, initially i was tinking wat's wrong wif prema, de sounded so different, like she suddenly had short tongue.. only did i realised dat this naughty gal went n pierced her tongue.. ouch.. omg.. well as long as she likes it, nothing else matters.. hehs.. met liz's fren who was celebrating his bday at a pub, didnt really stay long.. not sure if it's cuz of jet-lag so i wasnt prepared to party or mayb i wasnt dressed up to party so headed back instead.. de weather was cold but i enjoyed every single bit of it..
24/6/07~went church wif liz.. her church frenz were all so friendly dat for a moment i felt like becoming a christian.. haha.. went to world square, nothing better else to do, went n do my hair.. did some treatment n had a haircut by de professional at toni & guy & spent almost AUD$200 there.. after which went and check out liz's new plc.. met victor, my polymate, dat was de moment i felt like working in sydney.. seems so much better than sg.. overloaded wif work in sg.. good point for consideration.. had dinner at pancakes n took some photos at some unknown plc where i could see both harbour bridge & opera house.. but didnt haf really good camera so couldnt get really nice pix, endede up taking ourselves.. haha.. "LA BEGGARS"
25/6/07~flew to gold coast.. adrian was der so early, de moment he arrived in gold coast he msg & called me while i was still slping on liz's bed.. haha.. anywae flight was delayed.. by de time i arrived at gold coast it was already like 3pm.. by de time i get to de hotel (courtyard mariotte - highly recommended if u r juz looking for a plc to rest wif magnificent sea view.. well dat's provided u request for high floors.. hehs.. :P) within de next few mins, it was dark.. catch some nap n went out for dinner.. it was really cold but so cold till i was so tempted n we had ice-cream for dessert.. imagine walking down de streets wif de cold wind blowing at ur face n having an ice cream.. though it was cold but dat's when i really appreciate ice cream.. hehs.. walk ard de streets to check out wat's ard de hotel.. all i can say is good location.. right smack in de central of all de shopping area.. hehs..
26/6/07~woke up to find dat it was drizzling outside but de rain nvr stop me frm doin anything.. decided to go ahead wif plan.. went to movie world.. spent de whole day der.. took quite a no of pix.. bought a couple of things.. nothing exciting.. except.. adrian & jasmine pulled me to take this water ride.. i didnt want to but they insisted.. i'm really afraid of heights.. i hate de feeling of "de heart dropping".. as usual,u can hear me screamed throughout de whole ride.. haha.. but i did enjoy myself.. was entertaining de duo wif my screams.. haha.. but den got ourselves all so wet.. not only were we wet.. we were so cold too.. by de end of de day, u can c our hair was wet frm de rain n water in de pix.. took some other rides too.. but nothing much.. went to Jupiters (casino) at nite.. first time i played roulette, juz to waste my money der only.. haha.. cuz i haf no idea how to really play it.. all iwas doin was simply putting my money on de table to get swoped.. haha..
27/6/07~de sun was bright & shining.. was supposed to go to dream world.. overslept.. haha.. late nite syndrome.. haha.. my first shopping day.. went to pacific fair.. the one n only plc where i bought lotsa stuff.. it was juz so hugh dat u can practically buy everything der.. no idea wat i bought n who i bought for.. all i can remember was by de end of de day i was carrying tons of paperbags.. wif lotsa stuff inside but mostly clothes.. SALES were all over de plc or shld i say all over australia.. haha.. wtd to go another shopping centre (cant remember wat it is called) but didnt expect de bus ride to b so long.. by de time we got der most of de shops were closed or shld i say all.. all dat was left were de eatery.. exactly wat we need.. food to replenish all de energy we spent during shopping.. not much choices.. end up wif pastas.. by de time we got back to hotel, drop dead tired.. not exactly oso but we needed de slp so dat we'll not oversleep again de next morning..
28/6/07~great weather, woke up on time, stayed wif wat was planned.. went dream world.. guess this was de plc where u can literally hear me screaming thruout.. visited de animal farm too.. de piggies were so cute.. so were de sheeps.. saw koalas & kangaroos.. took some rides.. de most exciting will b this one dat travels @ 160km/hr.. it juz zoom up to a certain height n drop by down.. let me remind u, it's within seconds.. like mayb 20s.. i was so scared.. scared de shit out of me.. was juz screaming throughout till i heard smone shouted.. "shut up".. haha.. u tink i care.. haha.. de other one dat i screamed de most was de 3d haunted house.. stupid adrain made me walked in front.. which means i haf to bring them round de corners where i get scared first.. i was so scared dat i could hardly move, so basically they were pushing me frm de back.. haha.. it was freezing when we left.. time passes really fast.. before we could even realised it was time for us to leave though by dat time i had already build up enough courage to sit all other rides but time didnt permit.. went back to de hotel.. took a rest & went jupiters at nite again.. but htis time i didnt play much.. dun wanna waste too much money gambling.. went back hotel first wif jasmine cuz both of us were bored n tired..
29/6/07~last min shopping b4 we head back to melbourne.. but i really love de glisterring beach of gold coast.. didnt had a chance to step to de beach, for sure i will go back again.. this time round not during winter.. haha.. MELBOURNE here i come.. stayed at adrian's plc.. went clubbing.. de one n only time.. kinda scary though.. de pple der were so aggressive.. so easy.. yucks.. haha.. didnt really enjoy it except for de music.. RnB rocks..
30/6/07~went shopping again in melbourne but this time round i didnt buy as much as i were in gold coast but i bought 3 pairs of boots.. haha.. crazy rite?! wateva man.. as long as i like n enjoy.. went crown casino at nite.. met adrian's frenz.. one of them were really cute.. if i remember correctly his name was tom.. but too bad he's attached.. haha.. saw two interesting scenes.. First scene: everyone flocks to de other end of de casino includings all de securities.. i wondered wat happen too.. though i wasnt really sure.. i saw one guy got punched in de eye.. de other lying motionless on de floor.. thought wat happen to him.. anywae he was ok but was brought away by de police.. wonder wat he did.. guess either he cheated or he stole money, u know stuff like dat.. Second scene: was gonna get some drink, den this drunkard fell rite in front of me, wat made matter worst was he knocked his head against de jackpot machine.. OUCH!!
1/7/07~was packing my luggage n waiting for de arrival of liz.. did nothing much..
2/7/07~this is one of my fav.. went puffy billy.. took de steam train.. damn nice.. de scenary, train ride.. it was quite short though, didnt quite get many nice pix here.. next was yarra valley (vineyard).. this was one of my fav plc.. de sky was clear.. de plc was beautiful for picture taking.. had lunch & some wine here.. took quite a no of good & nice pix here.. next was hensvale santuary.. sounds sophiscated but it was juz a zoo.. haha.. my pictures will tell all wat animal i saw der..
3/7/07~SYDNEY.. before i even realised, i'm due to go back home in a few days time.. time really flies.. juz when i'm about to enjoy myself.. anywae reach sydney quite late so didnt do anything much except for dinner n some fun over dinner.. cant help but juz had to disturb carrod.. haha.. u shld haf seen his irritated look, so funny.. haha..
4/7/07~visited my campus.. it's really big.. i like de castle looking sch.. went to somewhere near de sea.. took pix of de harbour bridge & opera house..
5/7/07~went blue mountain.. liz & me, we were both so under-dressed. freezing.. each had to buy a sweater.. temperature was like 5-9 degrees.. but de views were really good.. took de tram.. freaking hell, it was like sitting roller coaster.. it was so steep.. morever we took de front seats.. looked as if we were gonna fall into de forest anytime.. haha.. went to de jenolan caves after dat.. on our way up, guess wat i saw.. first it was rainbow.. de first time i saw rainbow so many times.. it was de same rainbow but frm different angle.. i could even catch a pix of it.. fantastic.. den i saw snow.. it was snowing.. both liz & mine, our first time dat we saw snow.. we were so excited.. haha.. had our lunch at jenolan caves.. de caves were amazing.. for them to do de tunnelling and enable pple to visit de caves, they were even more amazing.. but i really enjoyed myself - last day in sydney.. carrod took me & liz across de harbour bridge to de other side of sydney for a japanese crusine.. it was an early nite for me.. quite tired after all de touring.. but poor liz & carrod were packing stuff.. liz gotta move out of de hostel by next day..
6/7/07~it was time for me to return.. nearly cried at de airport wheni was about to leave.. wonder whether it was bcuz i'm leaving liz or whether if i dun wanna return to de reality.. anywae had abit of prob wif my luggage.. overweight.. cldnt help liz bring back her stuffs.. goodbye australia..
de moment i touched down, after i got home, i went out n meet tim, mel & david.. had a short nite.. juz chilling out n updating them abt my trip.. indeed and in fact a worthwhile trip away.. thanks to everyone who made my trip such a memorable one..
