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Monday, August 25, 2008
had a really busy day @ work.. 2 mc means 2 staffs down, means take one more case.. thankfully i had an empty room and i managed to tai-chi de patient to come in during pm shift.. at least i didnt take nap when i came home.. in fact i did smthg even more stupid.. lester wanted to run, so i thot i cld do an easy run after yesterday's ahm.. who knows 15mins into de jog, i felt pain coming thru my right knee but i didnt really stop and continued running, but another min passed and i cldnt take de pain any more.. i stopped and walk for abt 3-5mins and i continued jogging again, cont for another 5mins of even much slower jog.. ultimately i gave up as de pain was too unbearable.. i ended limping home cuz i cldnt even walk probably, every step i took, i cld feel de pain from de front of knee radiating till de back of de knee.. i'm really not sure wat's wrong, iced them for de whole nite, hopefully it'll b better tmr, otherwise i dun know how to do my nike human race this sun.. in fact after tinking thru de whole of last nite n whole of tdy while working, i realised, i cant give up running.. in fact i'm goin channel all de negative thots i had yesterday to b positive.. giving me motivation to train harder and prove to everyone including myself dat i'm not juz there, i'll b way in front.. but meanwhile b4 i can do dat, i better get my knee fixed..
♥
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Did my army half marathon tdy.. it was more of a motivational race for me as i've been feeling quite lazy plus not motivated to run.. i really dun know wat used to kept me motivated to run.. actually i felt quite gd for de race tdy.. first 10km was very comfortable.. had a toilet break in between as i really cant take it.. probably wasted a 2mins in there but at least i felt better to run but kinda lost de momentum cuz was struggling after de toilet break.. pushed myself for de last 3km.. did a 1hr 55mins 8 secs (hand-timed) for my army half marathon..
spoke to eric after dat.. well he kinda mentioned dat be it whether i trained or not, i'm always doin around this timing: 1hr 50mins to 2hrs.. pretty demoralising to hear dat.. feel like i'm coming to de end of my running.. since i cant improve anymore, i dun see any point in trying or working hard for smthg dat i wont make any difference.. wat's de point of continuing since i cant seem to motivate myself as well.. sometimes i juz feel so tired.. i cant find de perfect reason to push myself.. sometimes i juz dun know wat i really wanna do in life.. some days i feel like i know every path i shld take for my future plan.. some days i juz feel so lost, dun know wat i really want in life.. some days i'm happy from de bottom of the heart but most days i asked myself if i'm really happy or i'm juz trying to be happy or i'm juz entertaining pple, making them happy.. some days i asked myself if i'm truly happy but if i feel happy, wat's really making me happy, most of the time i cant find de answer to my question.. recently i feel tired easily.. not just physically but mentally.. not juz work but home.. some days i feel like isolating myself.. some days i feel like disappearing from this world.. most of the days i juz dun feel like i'm making any difference or contributing in any ways.. some days i asked myself if i can make a comeback in my sporting arena.. some days i tell myself i shld juz give up.. i really dun know wat i want.. is it really so difficult to find out wat i really want.. recently i miss my mum alot.. cuz i know if she's ard me, i dun have to wash my muddy shoes these 2 days.. i can b a princess.. picked up by dad after race, go home, shower, haf dinner and sleep, not having to worry abt my dirty clothes and stuffs.. tink i really take my parents for granted.. anywae i had survived a race tdy, one more race next wk (nike human race) and after which i shld really consider if i really wanna continue training or i shld juz forget abt coming back to my sporting arena.. WATEVER.. Life is really fucked up..
♥
Saturday, August 16, 2008
after laying off for abt a week, i went for my race.. Civil Service Club Bedok Reservoir Run.. Was in de women's open category representing SingHealth.. Covered a distance of 5.8km with a timing of 27:02 min (official timing though i took a 28:37min).. anywae was not expecting much out of this race cuz i havent really been training.. was aiming for a timing not more than 30min (5min/km) and hopefully to bag a top ten position.. i didnt had a good start off.. was a bit far behind cuz i was stuck with de crowd for de initial part.. only manage to break away when i was out of tp after crossing de bridge, at dat point zhaoyuan (who was my target as she actually surpass me de last time when we ran at bedok reservoir but she did a wrong route so i still manage to chase her back for de last stretch) was already ahead of me.. i told myself i must stay close behind her, till a point when i tink i was really very close behind her n my pace was abit slower, i decided to overtake her.. but i was fighting hard to pull away frm her cuz i really dun wanna lose to her again.. i didnt dare to slow down de moment i overtook her.. but i need my next target who was right ahead of me.. but she was maintaining her pace n i couldnt catch up with her and in fact at de end she managed to pull quite a distance away frm me.. guess insufficient trg resulted in poor ending.. my last part of de race was a struggle, i couldnt increase my pace, was in fact abit slower.. everytime a heard footstep right behind me, i juz got really worried, but luckily it was all de guys dat overtook me n not de ladies.. rachel n sumiko were too far ahead of me.. their timing was 2mins faster than me.. came back as 5th for individual and we were actually 1st for de team event.. de best thing was i only found out abt my team juz right b4 de race, dun even know who i'm racing for n who's in my team.. wat a joke..
my team mates
my funny fren - zhiyong
zhaoyuan & me
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Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Time: 0700 hrs
Trg: Session 1
10 mins easy
20 mins (10km pace)
10 mins easy
Overall: Comfortable, felt much better than yesterday
woke up at 0630, tried calling aaron cuz we were supposed to run together, but cldnt get him.. so i was in n out of slp till 0645.. but i still cldnt get him.. thot he was still slping soundly but wateva it was, i decided to wake up and do de run myself.. we were supposed to meet at tpjc, i ran ard de area but cldnt see him.. i ended running ard tpjc n its estate while searching for de pasir ris park connector, kinda lost my way but i managed to find it in de end.. ran along pasir ris PCN to sunplaza park and back home..
shall go get ready for de nite.. having dinner with my colleagues at seafood harvest at bugis den meeting my sis to celebrate her bday though i had dinner wif her yesterday.. ciaoz..
♥
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Trg: 10mins warm-up
5mins hard
3mins easy
Total x 4sets
1st set pace was quite gd but i cld feel my legs getting heavier mayb (time for confession) dat's bcuz i havent been trg for de last 6days.. 2nd & 3rd sets were almost de same pace.. felt dat de pace was abt 20% slower than de 1st set.. upon finishing my 3rd set, i kinda gave up.. in fact i walked for abt 15-20s but i forced myself to continue.. finally i manage to complete 4sets.. i felt dat my pelvis was moving alot recently when i walk n esp when i run.. not quite sure y.. it didnt really hust but juz felt de shift some where.. but anywae will monitor n see how it goes.. hopefully i can wake up for my morning run tmr..
meanwhile i shall head for stephanie's father's wake.. aunt promised to let me drive to de venue but in de end she changed her mind.. was quite upset abt it.. felt dat if u dun trust me to drive den dun promise me in de 1st plc.. sometimes i really juz feel like buying a car.. though i know it'll b a financially straining for me but i really need my own transport to get ard to plces.. mayb i shld consider buying back a bike again.. cheap transport.. seriously i'll b bankrupt one day juz by taking cab.. anywae wateva..
♥ princ3ss_di ♥
a DeViL iN an AnGeL dIsgUiSe..
"you put the pink back in the sky,
you insert the rainbow in my eyes,
you're that silver lining in my prayer,
painting colours everywhere."
diplomatic and urbane
romantic and charming
easygoing and sociable
idealistic and peaceable
indecisive and changeable
gullible and easily infuenced
flirtatious and self-indulgent
LIKES
♥The finer things in life
♥Sharing
♥conviviality
♥Gentleness
DISLIKES
-Violence
-Injustice
-Brutishness
-Being a slave to fashion
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Monday, August 25, 2008
had a really busy day @ work.. 2 mc means 2 staffs down, means take one more case.. thankfully i had an empty room and i managed to tai-chi de patient to come in during pm shift.. at least i didnt take nap when i came home.. in fact i did smthg even more stupid.. lester wanted to run, so i thot i cld do an easy run after yesterday's ahm.. who knows 15mins into de jog, i felt pain coming thru my right knee but i didnt really stop and continued running, but another min passed and i cldnt take de pain any more.. i stopped and walk for abt 3-5mins and i continued jogging again, cont for another 5mins of even much slower jog.. ultimately i gave up as de pain was too unbearable.. i ended limping home cuz i cldnt even walk probably, every step i took, i cld feel de pain from de front of knee radiating till de back of de knee.. i'm really not sure wat's wrong, iced them for de whole nite, hopefully it'll b better tmr, otherwise i dun know how to do my nike human race this sun.. in fact after tinking thru de whole of last nite n whole of tdy while working, i realised, i cant give up running.. in fact i'm goin channel all de negative thots i had yesterday to b positive.. giving me motivation to train harder and prove to everyone including myself dat i'm not juz there, i'll b way in front.. but meanwhile b4 i can do dat, i better get my knee fixed..
♥
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Did my army half marathon tdy.. it was more of a motivational race for me as i've been feeling quite lazy plus not motivated to run.. i really dun know wat used to kept me motivated to run.. actually i felt quite gd for de race tdy.. first 10km was very comfortable.. had a toilet break in between as i really cant take it.. probably wasted a 2mins in there but at least i felt better to run but kinda lost de momentum cuz was struggling after de toilet break.. pushed myself for de last 3km.. did a 1hr 55mins 8 secs (hand-timed) for my army half marathon..
spoke to eric after dat.. well he kinda mentioned dat be it whether i trained or not, i'm always doin around this timing: 1hr 50mins to 2hrs.. pretty demoralising to hear dat.. feel like i'm coming to de end of my running.. since i cant improve anymore, i dun see any point in trying or working hard for smthg dat i wont make any difference.. wat's de point of continuing since i cant seem to motivate myself as well.. sometimes i juz feel so tired.. i cant find de perfect reason to push myself.. sometimes i juz dun know wat i really wanna do in life.. some days i feel like i know every path i shld take for my future plan.. some days i juz feel so lost, dun know wat i really want in life.. some days i'm happy from de bottom of the heart but most days i asked myself if i'm really happy or i'm juz trying to be happy or i'm juz entertaining pple, making them happy.. some days i asked myself if i'm truly happy but if i feel happy, wat's really making me happy, most of the time i cant find de answer to my question.. recently i feel tired easily.. not just physically but mentally.. not juz work but home.. some days i feel like isolating myself.. some days i feel like disappearing from this world.. most of the days i juz dun feel like i'm making any difference or contributing in any ways.. some days i asked myself if i can make a comeback in my sporting arena.. some days i tell myself i shld juz give up.. i really dun know wat i want.. is it really so difficult to find out wat i really want.. recently i miss my mum alot.. cuz i know if she's ard me, i dun have to wash my muddy shoes these 2 days.. i can b a princess.. picked up by dad after race, go home, shower, haf dinner and sleep, not having to worry abt my dirty clothes and stuffs.. tink i really take my parents for granted.. anywae i had survived a race tdy, one more race next wk (nike human race) and after which i shld really consider if i really wanna continue training or i shld juz forget abt coming back to my sporting arena.. WATEVER.. Life is really fucked up..
♥
Saturday, August 16, 2008
after laying off for abt a week, i went for my race.. Civil Service Club Bedok Reservoir Run.. Was in de women's open category representing SingHealth.. Covered a distance of 5.8km with a timing of 27:02 min (official timing though i took a 28:37min).. anywae was not expecting much out of this race cuz i havent really been training.. was aiming for a timing not more than 30min (5min/km) and hopefully to bag a top ten position.. i didnt had a good start off.. was a bit far behind cuz i was stuck with de crowd for de initial part.. only manage to break away when i was out of tp after crossing de bridge, at dat point zhaoyuan (who was my target as she actually surpass me de last time when we ran at bedok reservoir but she did a wrong route so i still manage to chase her back for de last stretch) was already ahead of me.. i told myself i must stay close behind her, till a point when i tink i was really very close behind her n my pace was abit slower, i decided to overtake her.. but i was fighting hard to pull away frm her cuz i really dun wanna lose to her again.. i didnt dare to slow down de moment i overtook her.. but i need my next target who was right ahead of me.. but she was maintaining her pace n i couldnt catch up with her and in fact at de end she managed to pull quite a distance away frm me.. guess insufficient trg resulted in poor ending.. my last part of de race was a struggle, i couldnt increase my pace, was in fact abit slower.. everytime a heard footstep right behind me, i juz got really worried, but luckily it was all de guys dat overtook me n not de ladies.. rachel n sumiko were too far ahead of me.. their timing was 2mins faster than me.. came back as 5th for individual and we were actually 1st for de team event.. de best thing was i only found out abt my team juz right b4 de race, dun even know who i'm racing for n who's in my team.. wat a joke..
my team mates
my funny fren - zhiyong
zhaoyuan & me
♥
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Time: 0700 hrs
Trg: Session 1
10 mins easy
20 mins (10km pace)
10 mins easy
Overall: Comfortable, felt much better than yesterday
woke up at 0630, tried calling aaron cuz we were supposed to run together, but cldnt get him.. so i was in n out of slp till 0645.. but i still cldnt get him.. thot he was still slping soundly but wateva it was, i decided to wake up and do de run myself.. we were supposed to meet at tpjc, i ran ard de area but cldnt see him.. i ended running ard tpjc n its estate while searching for de pasir ris park connector, kinda lost my way but i managed to find it in de end.. ran along pasir ris PCN to sunplaza park and back home..
shall go get ready for de nite.. having dinner with my colleagues at seafood harvest at bugis den meeting my sis to celebrate her bday though i had dinner wif her yesterday.. ciaoz..
♥
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Trg: 10mins warm-up
5mins hard
3mins easy
Total x 4sets
1st set pace was quite gd but i cld feel my legs getting heavier mayb (time for confession) dat's bcuz i havent been trg for de last 6days.. 2nd & 3rd sets were almost de same pace.. felt dat de pace was abt 20% slower than de 1st set.. upon finishing my 3rd set, i kinda gave up.. in fact i walked for abt 15-20s but i forced myself to continue.. finally i manage to complete 4sets.. i felt dat my pelvis was moving alot recently when i walk n esp when i run.. not quite sure y.. it didnt really hust but juz felt de shift some where.. but anywae will monitor n see how it goes.. hopefully i can wake up for my morning run tmr..
meanwhile i shall head for stephanie's father's wake.. aunt promised to let me drive to de venue but in de end she changed her mind.. was quite upset abt it.. felt dat if u dun trust me to drive den dun promise me in de 1st plc.. sometimes i really juz feel like buying a car.. though i know it'll b a financially straining for me but i really need my own transport to get ard to plces.. mayb i shld consider buying back a bike again.. cheap transport.. seriously i'll b bankrupt one day juz by taking cab.. anywae wateva..
