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Sunday, November 25, 2007
back home on friday 23rd nov 2007, when de tragic incident happened to my frens: jeremy (da tou), reuben & boon san (hotdog) who represented singapore in a dragonboat race in cambodia at de tonle sap river, i was embracing myself on my bed while they were all fighting for survival.. i was happily enjoying myself thru de night, went to bedok reservoir, tinking abt de good old dragonboat times.. but y didnt anyone shared de first hand news wif me? by de time i heard abt de news on sat, i was too shocked.. too disturbed.. i cldnt get any more news except dat they haf been down in de water for more than 12 hrs.. oh gosh.. wat's happening to the world? i bought wateva newspapers i could get on hand.. flipping anxously thru all de pages, reading thru de articles abt de incident but nothing more i could find out except, repeatedly the 5 missing singaporeans in cambodia.. not long ago i encountered death of my fren ian ng.. now come 3 of my other frens.. i prayed for their safety.. for miracles to happen.. but all my hopes been dashed.. all they found were bodies of de 5 missing singaporeans n not all 5 singaporeans had been saved.. can i do an exchange wif god? de remaining of my life in exchange for them to live a little longer.. y do human beings only regret when smthg has happened? i've been asking myself.. y didnt i turn up for de gatherings.. y didnt i arranged for another db gathering.. i've been so selfish tinking abt myself.. y didnt i learn my lesson after ian's death? while reminishing thru de old memories.. i missed jeremy de most.. he's like one of de best team mates i had, one of de best buddy i had.. one of de best guy i can rely on.. one of de best bro i can trust.. u were so strong physically n mentally but y didnt u save urself? y did u tear all our hearts? i miss him n his idiotic smile, stupid face and super lame jokes.. reuben: de guy who plays really nice piano, who stunned us at one of our gathering at meixuan's plc.. whom i always call ruby boy.. boonsan: de one wif super hot lips.. but oso one who always kena suan by teammates.. but now all of them r gone.. too late to say goodbye.. too late to thank them for intruding my life.. too late to thank them for rowing wif me n making me in love wif dragonboat.. too late to thank them for being there in times of need.. every single thing is too late now.. i cant imagine them struggling down in de water.. de thought of them becoming unconscious in water like wat movie always showed is so scary.. struggling for every glimpse of hope to surface out of de water.. i was juz like them hoping dat they r safe n sound.. mayb resting at some nearby land.. i cried myself to sleep.. waking up every now n then, checking my hp for de latest piece of news.. watching de news for any latest update n logging online.. y all my frenz leaving me suddenly.. leaving us, their frenz.. in agony.. in sadness.. feeling remorseful.. feeling helpless.. i hope dat they can turn up right before my eyes so dat i can hug them n thank them.. had i knew everything, i would treasure every moments wif them.. it's always de had i, if i could, i wish n i hope..
♥
Sunday, November 04, 2007
i havent been blogging for so long.. well mayb mel is right.. when we cant take this stress level, blogging became our way of venting frustration.. well but y am i here blogging again? my life has been fine since i came back frm hk.. at least i dun feel upset easily.. i dun get mood swing easily.. seldom haf negative thoughts.. it was more of like but to almost de old time me.. focused on wat i need to do.. focused on wat's my goal n how do i plan to achieve it.. anywae now my current plan is to get my class 3 licence and my practical test is end of jan.. pretty fast right? like wat i had planned - 3mths.. hopefully i can get my licence wif one passed.. next is my running - coming really soon.. frankly speaking i dun tink i can hit eric's target but rather i juz wanna complete my 10km wif a comfortable pace.. actually mayb i can hit a 50min race time.. well but gotta see how hard-working i will b to follow my training programme strictly.. beats me.. next is hopefully i can get into my advanced diploma (ccnc) next year.. awaiting for result..went out wif this guy last nite.. so far he's de only one dat makes my heart pound after yc.. he's one dat makes me forget yc.. but yet i know i cant trust him.. i only he's been sweet talking to me.. but i juz enjoy him sweet talking to me.. telling me things i wanna hear.. making me unable to breathe when i get close to him.. oh god.. since i came home last nite, i couldnt stop tinking abt him.. his imge floats in my mind every now & then.. i would b tinking whether if he has finish work.. busy at work.. tired? n things.. but i know very well this is very unreal.. unrealistic.. but i like living in this dream now.. at least i feel happy.. i can feel love once again.. i dun feel cold.. i feel warmth in his hug.. but yet another part of me tells me to beware of him.. dun develop more feelings as i will end up hurting myself only.. but anywae guess i will juz let everything stay as it is now.. let it b a beautiful memory.. but a part of me wants this to b a even more beautiful memory as a selfish me wants him all by myself n juz me myself.. hiaz.. this is confusing.. de more i tink abt wat will happen in de future, de more my heart will ache..
♥ princ3ss_di ♥
a DeViL iN an AnGeL dIsgUiSe..
"you put the pink back in the sky,
you insert the rainbow in my eyes,
you're that silver lining in my prayer,
painting colours everywhere."
diplomatic and urbane
romantic and charming
easygoing and sociable
idealistic and peaceable
indecisive and changeable
gullible and easily infuenced
flirtatious and self-indulgent
LIKES
♥The finer things in life
♥Sharing
♥conviviality
♥Gentleness
DISLIKES
-Violence
-Injustice
-Brutishness
-Being a slave to fashion
♥
Sunday, November 25, 2007
back home on friday 23rd nov 2007, when de tragic incident happened to my frens: jeremy (da tou), reuben & boon san (hotdog) who represented singapore in a dragonboat race in cambodia at de tonle sap river, i was embracing myself on my bed while they were all fighting for survival.. i was happily enjoying myself thru de night, went to bedok reservoir, tinking abt de good old dragonboat times.. but y didnt anyone shared de first hand news wif me? by de time i heard abt de news on sat, i was too shocked.. too disturbed.. i cldnt get any more news except dat they haf been down in de water for more than 12 hrs.. oh gosh.. wat's happening to the world? i bought wateva newspapers i could get on hand.. flipping anxously thru all de pages, reading thru de articles abt de incident but nothing more i could find out except, repeatedly the 5 missing singaporeans in cambodia.. not long ago i encountered death of my fren ian ng.. now come 3 of my other frens.. i prayed for their safety.. for miracles to happen.. but all my hopes been dashed.. all they found were bodies of de 5 missing singaporeans n not all 5 singaporeans had been saved.. can i do an exchange wif god? de remaining of my life in exchange for them to live a little longer.. y do human beings only regret when smthg has happened? i've been asking myself.. y didnt i turn up for de gatherings.. y didnt i arranged for another db gathering.. i've been so selfish tinking abt myself.. y didnt i learn my lesson after ian's death? while reminishing thru de old memories.. i missed jeremy de most.. he's like one of de best team mates i had, one of de best buddy i had.. one of de best guy i can rely on.. one of de best bro i can trust.. u were so strong physically n mentally but y didnt u save urself? y did u tear all our hearts? i miss him n his idiotic smile, stupid face and super lame jokes.. reuben: de guy who plays really nice piano, who stunned us at one of our gathering at meixuan's plc.. whom i always call ruby boy.. boonsan: de one wif super hot lips.. but oso one who always kena suan by teammates.. but now all of them r gone.. too late to say goodbye.. too late to thank them for intruding my life.. too late to thank them for rowing wif me n making me in love wif dragonboat.. too late to thank them for being there in times of need.. every single thing is too late now.. i cant imagine them struggling down in de water.. de thought of them becoming unconscious in water like wat movie always showed is so scary.. struggling for every glimpse of hope to surface out of de water.. i was juz like them hoping dat they r safe n sound.. mayb resting at some nearby land.. i cried myself to sleep.. waking up every now n then, checking my hp for de latest piece of news.. watching de news for any latest update n logging online.. y all my frenz leaving me suddenly.. leaving us, their frenz.. in agony.. in sadness.. feeling remorseful.. feeling helpless.. i hope dat they can turn up right before my eyes so dat i can hug them n thank them.. had i knew everything, i would treasure every moments wif them.. it's always de had i, if i could, i wish n i hope..
♥
Sunday, November 04, 2007
i havent been blogging for so long.. well mayb mel is right.. when we cant take this stress level, blogging became our way of venting frustration.. well but y am i here blogging again? my life has been fine since i came back frm hk.. at least i dun feel upset easily.. i dun get mood swing easily.. seldom haf negative thoughts.. it was more of like but to almost de old time me.. focused on wat i need to do.. focused on wat's my goal n how do i plan to achieve it.. anywae now my current plan is to get my class 3 licence and my practical test is end of jan.. pretty fast right? like wat i had planned - 3mths.. hopefully i can get my licence wif one passed.. next is my running - coming really soon.. frankly speaking i dun tink i can hit eric's target but rather i juz wanna complete my 10km wif a comfortable pace.. actually mayb i can hit a 50min race time.. well but gotta see how hard-working i will b to follow my training programme strictly.. beats me.. next is hopefully i can get into my advanced diploma (ccnc) next year.. awaiting for result..went out wif this guy last nite.. so far he's de only one dat makes my heart pound after yc.. he's one dat makes me forget yc.. but yet i know i cant trust him.. i only he's been sweet talking to me.. but i juz enjoy him sweet talking to me.. telling me things i wanna hear.. making me unable to breathe when i get close to him.. oh god.. since i came home last nite, i couldnt stop tinking abt him.. his imge floats in my mind every now & then.. i would b tinking whether if he has finish work.. busy at work.. tired? n things.. but i know very well this is very unreal.. unrealistic.. but i like living in this dream now.. at least i feel happy.. i can feel love once again.. i dun feel cold.. i feel warmth in his hug.. but yet another part of me tells me to beware of him.. dun develop more feelings as i will end up hurting myself only.. but anywae guess i will juz let everything stay as it is now.. let it b a beautiful memory.. but a part of me wants this to b a even more beautiful memory as a selfish me wants him all by myself n juz me myself.. hiaz.. this is confusing.. de more i tink abt wat will happen in de future, de more my heart will ache..
