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Sunday, April 29, 2007
oh great it's wkend once again.. pretty fast but not fast enuff for me to get to aussie yet.. oh man.. i juz cant wait for my holiday to come.. i've a laid back wk for almost the whole wk.. had a chalet on wed n thurs nite.. went for my M5 paper on wed n i've yet to collect the result.. haha.. wonder if i pass anot.. will do it tmr den.. had a sumptous meal @ kenny roger.. of cuz der's pix.. juz waiting to b uploaded.. wait for piz taken by the princess.. haha.. we (jason, jasmine, siyu, monling n me) went grocery shopping @ carrefour.. bought quite a no of stuff.. u wun believe it, we actually managed to finish most of them by the nite.. as usual, wat can u do @ chalet at nite? of cuz we played card cum drinking game.. wanted to get drunk though but my luck was juz so good.. i only get to drink a few times.. boring.. oh yah, tim came n joined us.. guess wat did this buddy of mine allowed me to do? yes, played wif his car.. n clever me, got so scared dat i drove the car up the payment n front wheels were dangling at the "lonkang" haha.. but it was fun driving.. haha.. i accompanied n waiting for the tow truck cuz none of us cld do anything abt it.. when finally the car was in working condition, the guy didnt even charge a single cent for it.. how fantastic.. even if he does, i'll probably pay for it cuz i was the one who was at fault.. haha.. anywae tks tim.. u r the best.. haha.. doubt der's anyone else who'll allowed me to play wif their car.. for sure jason will not cuz he doesnt even allow jasmine to drive his car.. hahha.. wtd to tann on thurs morning but it wasnt even hot at all.. boring.. but we played the luge n skyride.. cool.. oh went to watch the 4d show.. met this really cute korean guy.. as usual i'm always up to my nonsense.. haha.. got him to take a grp pix for us n in return i need to help him to take a pix too.. haha.. was so tempted to take a pix wif him but i resisted.. haha.. oh after dat, we got out.. went kbox to singing session but der was only siyu, jasmine n me.. monling had to go hm cuz her mum was very upset as the grandpa got admitted for a fall at hm.. n this poor gal fractured her foot which we all thots was juz a sprain n bandage her foot up.. quite an eventful chalet cuz francine was supposed to join us for the 2nd day but she got admitted as well cuz her bp was too high n she went c-section at nite.. her baby was born on 26/04/2007.. but poor mummy n baby suffered.. mummy was under observation in the labour ward for a day cuz her bp was still high while the baby got admitted to neonate ICU yesterday cuz the baby got pneumonia.. was on ventilator.. pooor baby.. poor francine.. she suffered so much for this pregnancy.. wished i cld help her in a way or another except to brighten her up.. nothing much i cld do.. hiaz.. supposed to meet my lil sis shopping for her working clothes but was too tired after work, came hm n rest till nite den i felt bored.. joined my sis at dbl o wif her frenz n frances.. met this guy, my sis fren, nice chap.. :) he so sweet la.. offered to send all of us hm n actually cuz it was raining as well.. but the problem was he stayed at the west, frances stayed at the north n me in the east.. i felt so bad.. but overall it was fun last nite cuz i simply enjoyed dancing.. haha.. but for right now, tink i better faster go n finish my assignment.. sch starting tmr again.. so boring.. hopefully i can finish off by tonite den i can go tanning tmr.. i juz miss the sun n my tann..
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
oh i havent been blogging for the past few days.. didnt feel like blogging.. well where shall i start.. erm friday 20/4/07.. was still sick.. stayed at hm the whole day.. didnt eat much either.. was juz watching my taiwanese drame (de hospital).. it juz makes me reflect on my hospital.. does such politics really happen? i meant der's definitely politics wherever u work but is it really dat bad? i really hate politics.. y cant we juz help each other n not cut each other's throat.. anywae dat's juz how realistic this world has become.. besides the show, i was so excited abt meeting my sec sch mates whom i know for 12 yrs n whom i havent meet for 8 yrs.. been tinking whole day how each & everyone of them would haf change..
met jeremy (kwok yuen) first juz outside balaclava.. he's so suave.. haha.. he used to wear specs n braces.. abit nerdy at time in class but look at him now.. haha.. too bad u r taken, otherwise i might work on u.. haha.. talking abt it.. thot i'm always late wif my appts.. instead everyone else was late.. i was like the earliest.. pretty unusual.. haha.. didnt expect bala to b so packed.. while waiting for celine n her beau to arrive, jeremy n me were hanging ard, catching up n looking for seats.. while we were all still waiting for seats, happen to c bernard (dinesh's fren) who got a table right under our nose when we were waiting right in front of him.. haha.. anywae he was still kind enuff to offer us a seat.. haha.. slowly one by one appeared.. marcus, joachim, shijian & xinguang.. actually all of them still look the same except a little more matured now as compared to last time.. i really had a great time talking abt how stupid each n everyone of us were in the past.. but wat i really missed wif this grp was the time i spent wif celine.. when we were very close.. goin to her plc after sch, hanging der till late nite den her mum will send me to the causeway where i'll take a bus across n get my dad to pick me up.. i really had alot of fun..
after which i hitch a ride frm celine n went over to dbl-o to look for frances n cat.. well in way cuz "glad" was celebrating his bday.. by the time i appeared, he's almost der already la.. (like drunk).. was pretty tired, it's more of the flu bug was getting the best out of me.. but still.. after the club closed, frances, cat n me went for supper.. dat was like my first proper meal for the whole day.. actually we were kinda waiting for george n his staffs to finish n close shop n adjourned to st james.. been der once but dun really like de plc.. n in a way it reminded me of someone who was supposed to pick me n my frenz up frm der but in de end, fly me kite.. wateva.. was kinda getting bored over der.. no guys to oogle.. nothing to do.. n by the time i got home was like 6am n for godness sake, i gotta work at 1pm.. thank god i survived thru work n in fact wasnt even tired..
22/4/07 ~ Sunday (DB gathering)
after all dat, it was still early, n mel got her car already n we decided to do smthg which i've been wanting to do.. i wanna see him n get back my stuff.. went back to mel's plc n sneak out wif the car.. took a drive to his plc.. though it was far frm mel's plc but we had plenty of time dat nite.. i dun deny the fact i still wanna see him again n the fact dat i missed him n also the fact dat i've been very miserable for the past 2mths.. msg him, he dun reply den fine, down we go.. took a spin at his plc's carpark - tested mel's driving skill on a multi-story carpark.. nope.. his car's not der.. not home yet.. but the thot of seeing him again kinda frighten me cuz i dun know wat to expect.. take my things n juz go n i wanna find out wat really happen this period when he mia? told mel let's go back.. went onto the expressway n u-turn back again.. we were crazy..
waited at his blk.. somehow or another, i caught a glimsp of him returning hm.. looks like the way he walk but not sure but i still tink it's him.. went for a second round at the carpark n yes, we saw his car.. mel parked besides him.. she was worried whether if her parking was straight but dat was the last thing i was bothered wif.. suddenly so many things went thru my mind.. approached his plc.. no wanting to disturb his parents but not sure wat to do cuz he didnt replied even after we msg him dat we r outside his plc.. i felt so timid.. a feeling which i nvr felt before overwhelmed me.. like we r some kind of thieves cuz i forgot which flr he stayed n seems like we were playing wif the lift.. my mind juz went blank n i really dun know wat to speak to him when we c face to face.. instead i told mel:"gal, u help me to take my things can?" i dun wan to see him.. n seriously, i was having tachycardia, blood was like gushing all inside my body..
oh no.. someone opened the door.. it was his mum.. i was like hiding at the lift der, i heard footsteps.. he's approaching.. shld i say anything.. too shock to c him.. i didnt even look at him most of the time.. my eyes was so focused on my footsteps.. took my things back without even saying anything.. mel was like asking me to talk to him but my mind totally black-out on him.. wat shld i say, wat shld i ask.. do i really wanna hear the answer? i really dun know.. ended up i got mel to talk to him n yet she didnt managed to find out anything too.. i was really upset & disappointed but i juz dun know wat to do..
got his msg early in the morning..
"hi gal, it has been awhile, hope u r ddoin fine. i tried, but mayb i jus don lov u enough. i jus can't accept pr mayb the idea of havin to commit in a r/s(relationship), in another word, i'm jus not ready. Pls don b mistaken is bcas of other parties (but the fact was, it is). not respondin is juz my character, cas i don knw hw to express my tots. i jus nd time for myself. u take gd care. i'm sorry." upon getting this msg, i was alrite, in fact it felt a heavy stone juz drop off my chest..
juz somehow or another i happen to hear frm a fren whom he mentioned to the last nite, dat he has a gf.. i was caught in surprise.. guess it's juz stupid me who believed him time n time n again.. but yet got cheated again n again.. besides upset & disappointed.. i was mad.. i cldnt focus at work.. thank god i didnt kill any patients.. i chose to believe u.. all these while i nvr hope for anything.. i'm happy juz to stay as ur fren.. but u juz haf to toy wif the feelings i haf for u.. i muz admit LOVE is BLIND.. i was really blinded.. (damnit)
i know i muz stay strong now.. at least dat's my frenz say but i'm really very tired of being strong, being independent, acting like a clown in front of my frenz even though i'm upset.. i hate making pple worried abt me.. hate pple getting upset cuz of wat's happening to me.. it makes me feel so useless.. i dun ask for much except for a happy surrounding.. but right now i juz cant do it anymore.. can i juz let everything down? can i juz b wat i feel for once? i'm really getting very tired.. juz so tired.. so tired till i juz dun wanna try anymore.. so tired till i juz wanna let everything go.. so tired till i wished i can slp foreva.. juz so tired of trying.. juz so tired of my life.. really very tired of it.. i'm TIRED!!!
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
i'm damn suay (unlucky) la.. i as so grogy when i woke up this noon, obviously the floor was wet n i saw it but somehow or another i juz managed to slip & fall.. how fanstatic.. it really hurts n pain radiated to my upper back.. hiaz.. gotta nurse myself back so dat i can go out n meet my frenz which i did.. yippy.. i'll feel really bad if i can meet them.. being sick is not an excuse to me though.. crazy bitch.. haha..
while waiting for my frenz to turn up 2 guys came up to me for donations.. i was listening to my mp3 and msging on my hp n i rejected u, OBVIOUSLY i'm not interested.. anywae thk god casey appeared in time n we juz walked away.. haha.. sorry guys but i'm juz so not in the mood.. anywae back to my date wif my frenz.. met suping, casey & cheryl.. i'm juz so happy to see them.. the last i met them was in the hospital n i still can remember the taste of the sandwich dat casey made for me.. it's juz so nice.. hee.. :P
guess where we decided to go for dinner - tony romas.. the food was supposed to b nice but it doesnt taste dat good anymore.. steak dat we ordered as medium was like well-done.. so so chewy.. very good chewing exercise for the mouth.. n wif mr food critic, casey.. haha.. he was like complaining non-stop abt the food.. haha.. but i dun blame him cuz it really sux.. i would haf rather juz ate at mac instead.. cheap n nice.. hee.. hee.. but i really had alot of fun wif them.. after which we adjourned to swensen.. kinda like we passed der n i was like shall we go for earthquake? n dat's right, here we go.. the ice-cream was fantastic though i was having cold n cough but who cares, right?!
wtd to meet frances after dat but i felt quite tired after the ice-cream.. tink it's the illness makes me feel so lethargic.. hiaz.. though i'm off tmr as well but tink i beta come hm n rest which i did.. i'm gonna pop some pills b4 i go to bed later.. oh n my poor 'lil sis called me n cried to me.. she misses all her sec sch mates whom most r of different JC frm her.. so poor thing.. well, life is never perfect n u makes frenz everywhere.. u can always arrange to meet ur frenz some day juz like wat i did.. gonna meet my sec sch mates tmr of some i havent since sec sch.. omg, cant imagine wat kind of changes everyone will haf.. i'm so excited.. tink i shld b in bed n make sure i'm all good to meet them tmr.. good nitez..
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
it was a bright & sunny afternoon.. (all dressed up for party tonite wif shirin & stella @ insomnia.. supposed to b a farewell party for stella but sorry babe, i missed it.. remember to come back spore more often k though i know it's abit far..) but who knows de moment i came out of the train, it was raining heavily.. it really caught me by surprise cuz i was cold n for the first time i didnt bring my sweater out which i usually does..
anywae i had a bad day cuz my running nose juz got so bad.. can u imagine wearing the mask and ur mucus was like gonna drip anytime.. damn disgusting la.. sneezing the whole time like the whole ward can hear me.. guess i look like a reindeer wif a red nose.. yippy xmas time.. (like real)
was supposed to b out but de moment i finish work, i juz took a cab hm wif my colleagues.. hm sweet hm.. popped some pills n tink it's taking its effect on me already.. shall go to bed soon.. before dat, mel msg tdy.. she's so funny la.. "finally finish 1 paper. not sure hw i'll flare cuz totally mental block. i really like e gift. at least i can flip open 2 c every nw n den. thanks!" i'm glad u like it babe.. no idea wat i can do to help u de-stress alittle except this little action of mine.. dun worry i'm sure u'll make it thru.. :)
siyu was very sweet as well.. out of the blue she juz said this to me "jus wan 2 tell u. if u like the guy jus be with him. happiness is very important 2 a gal. wat ever decision u make, u will alway have my full support." isnt she sweet.. i told her at the moment my heart still haf him and noone else.. it's not easy to forget someone juz like dat cuz he has given me alot of sweet memories.. for i only like to keep sweet memories n let the bad ones float away or b gone wif the wind.........
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it was a slow day.. woke up like almost 2pm.. crazy man.. i've been slping so much recently.. w
onder wat has got into me.. first thing i got up was "quick i need to get melissa's gift done" to the photo shop first and get my photos.. but i took a really stupid pix of myself cuz i really needa a pix of myself saying "happy birthday"
u'll know wat i mean by stupid looking rite.. haha.. anywae dat's juz me.. love it or leave it.. haha.. after dat i rushed hm to get my work started.. while doin up my gift for melissa.. chatted wif this really sweet guy call keith (someone shirin intro to me.. :P) was really nice chatting to him.. though it slowed my work but it was a beautiful afternoon wif the rain.. :)
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Monday, April 16, 2007
i dread goin back to work after a wk of leaves n esp. on a monday morning.. cuz monday morning is always expected to b busy but thank god, my juniors r so the powerful one.. so i needed to do was juz my in-charge work.. fantastic.. tks alot guys.. u guys were fantastic.. had sue ard as well.. it's kinda fun working in isolation.. dun mind being isolated away cuz i always haf alot of fun wif my colleagues.. but i receive a bad new the moment i arrived, one of my patients whom I've nursed for a very long time passed away.. so sad.. he was so confused at one time dat i had problem nursing him den he became so well dat he could actually wat shift i worked the day b4.. telling me n colleagues alot of stuff abt himself.. his sons were nice pple too though some didnt like them cuz they asked alot of questions.. but kinda expected, right, esp. wif ur loved ones..
was hanging ard in the ward for awhile cuz sister tay wtd to pass me some dressings for my scars.. she's such a sweetheart.. i totally agree wif the rest dat she's a good wound care nurse.. she's juz so knowledgable in her area.. i salute u man, sister.. met verine (my 'lil sis) @ TM.. went n get smthg done for a gf's bday which is like on wed.. she's been stressed wif sch n i juz wanna do smthg nice to chill her out n probably hope it'll help her de-stress abit so as to go further.. :)
overall, it's a slow monday, nothing much fantastic.. hope it'll b a beta day tmr but guess i'll b busy preparing for my fren's bday surprise tmr though.. i really hope dat she'll really love it.. :) cheers to a better tomorrow!!
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Sunday, April 15, 2007
der goes another wk, der goes my annual leave.. it's been really long since i last came in to blog.. thot i will do it more often but i doubt it.. anywae this was how i spent my wk..
monday n tuesday was in msia for my maternal granny's funeral.. i was
pretty upset cuz my mum cant see her mum for the last time due to some personal reason.. sad.. sad.. though it is tough but my family will preserve.. talking abt it, when we r doin some traditional offering.. smthg interesting happen.. while we were burning the house, incence paper n stuff.. not caught by the naked eyes.. it was this green lighting which was shown on one of my relatives hp.. he kinda tooka video-clip of it.. i've absolutely no idea how to explain it scientifically.. hiaz.. though i'm not close to this granny but i used to play alot at her plc.. u'll definitely b missed my me..
wednesday was out partying n as usual at dbl-o n as wat i expected, i cldnt wake up for an exam on thurs.. thank god it's juz smthg i'm doin out of my free time so i didnt feel any stress at all.. imagine if it was my degree paper n i missed the exam, i'll probably juz drop down n cry.. though i need to pay like $80 for the re-test, i'm fine wif it cuz my "bro" kinda said he'll pay for me.. tks bro.. haha..
friday was fantastic.. sch was fun as usual cuz der's always jasmine to keep me company.. we always haf lotsa fun in class.. well, mayb it's kinda i entertain her wif my artistic picture.. haha.. rite after class, kelly n me went down town.. the taxi queue was super long outside sch, as usual being nice pple, we queued behind everyone.. but der was this particular cab dat turn back to pick up passenger.. since we were the last in the queue and noone wtd to board the cab so kelly n me went for it.. it was juz so coincidentally dat we board her uncle's cab.. do u know wat it meant now? we had a free ride to town to meet tommy (kelly's bf frm finland).. we had dinner at shaw centre.. oooo........ i love pastamania.. afterwhich we head down to orchard hotel - ballymoon where shirin sings.. i simply love this babe to the core.. she's fantastic.. she sings well..
fun to hang out wif.. most importantly, i've known her for like 10over yrs.. i really miss her alot.. i juz enjoy hearing her sing.. oh, den i met stella, shirin's fren.. a lady pretty in pink.. after shirin's last set, we went down to insomnia.. my first time der but dat plc was crazy.. talking abt dat, we had primero (super cute dude) & candice (super pretty hot babe).. met nana (singapore idol contestant) - she's juz so full of energy.. overall rating of insomnia - craziness.. haha.. after which i followed shirin to this plc called pump room.. another band was playing.. they were good as well esp when they played my fav song: sweet child o' mine.. it was alot of fun.. by then, like 2am in the morning, both shirin n me we were zonked out by all the craziness, we decided to juz chill out n chit chat @ coffee club.. took lotsa stupid pix.. having fun laughing at how stupid we look n of cuz de food was fantastic.. time passes so fast.. by then it was 4am where the cafe was closing.. we had no choice but to bid farewell to each other..
Saturday: slack at home the whole afternoon.. went over to lien's plc for SART gathering..
we had bbq at his plc.. his plc is really big but i didnt haf a chance to explore it cuz i paiseh to ask for permission.. haha.. den my good bro tim came n pick me n we went orchard to meet the gals at swensen.. they changed the venue but i didnt know so both tim n me ended up chilling at rouge outdoor.. another good plc too.. waited for my fren to finish work n for him to come over n join us.. he brought along a gal.. up to his sleeve again.. haha.. but dat's juz him n i dun care cuz he's a good fren n a nice guy to hang out wif.. haha.. we headed to dbl-o.. siyu met us der.. the 5 of us ended playing drinking games.. it was really fun.. frances, my buddy came n join me too.. wat came as a surprise was the whole gang of my colleagues came n joined me too.. it was really good cuz i miss them alot for i havent seen them for the whole wk.. it was fun partying wif them too.. well guess it's juz me, i cant survive without my frenz, for they r the one who keep me goin n to this far.. love u guys to the max.. MUACKKKKKKKKKKK........
Sunday: family day for me.. woke up really late like 2pm.. slack at home den went out for dinner.. my aunt wtd me to accompany her to go shopping after dinner at tampines mall.. though i was tired but i still went.. anywae it's juz another sunday dat's gonna end n i'm all hyped up for work..
♥ princ3ss_di ♥
a DeViL iN an AnGeL dIsgUiSe..
"you put the pink back in the sky,
you insert the rainbow in my eyes,
you're that silver lining in my prayer,
painting colours everywhere."
diplomatic and urbane
romantic and charming
easygoing and sociable
idealistic and peaceable
indecisive and changeable
gullible and easily infuenced
flirtatious and self-indulgent
LIKES
♥The finer things in life
♥Sharing
♥conviviality
♥Gentleness
DISLIKES
-Violence
-Injustice
-Brutishness
-Being a slave to fashion
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Sunday, April 29, 2007
oh great it's wkend once again.. pretty fast but not fast enuff for me to get to aussie yet.. oh man.. i juz cant wait for my holiday to come.. i've a laid back wk for almost the whole wk.. had a chalet on wed n thurs nite.. went for my M5 paper on wed n i've yet to collect the result.. haha.. wonder if i pass anot.. will do it tmr den.. had a sumptous meal @ kenny roger.. of cuz der's pix.. juz waiting to b uploaded.. wait for piz taken by the princess.. haha.. we (jason, jasmine, siyu, monling n me) went grocery shopping @ carrefour.. bought quite a no of stuff.. u wun believe it, we actually managed to finish most of them by the nite.. as usual, wat can u do @ chalet at nite? of cuz we played card cum drinking game.. wanted to get drunk though but my luck was juz so good.. i only get to drink a few times.. boring.. oh yah, tim came n joined us.. guess wat did this buddy of mine allowed me to do? yes, played wif his car.. n clever me, got so scared dat i drove the car up the payment n front wheels were dangling at the "lonkang" haha.. but it was fun driving.. haha.. i accompanied n waiting for the tow truck cuz none of us cld do anything abt it.. when finally the car was in working condition, the guy didnt even charge a single cent for it.. how fantastic.. even if he does, i'll probably pay for it cuz i was the one who was at fault.. haha.. anywae tks tim.. u r the best.. haha.. doubt der's anyone else who'll allowed me to play wif their car.. for sure jason will not cuz he doesnt even allow jasmine to drive his car.. hahha.. wtd to tann on thurs morning but it wasnt even hot at all.. boring.. but we played the luge n skyride.. cool.. oh went to watch the 4d show.. met this really cute korean guy.. as usual i'm always up to my nonsense.. haha.. got him to take a grp pix for us n in return i need to help him to take a pix too.. haha.. was so tempted to take a pix wif him but i resisted.. haha.. oh after dat, we got out.. went kbox to singing session but der was only siyu, jasmine n me.. monling had to go hm cuz her mum was very upset as the grandpa got admitted for a fall at hm.. n this poor gal fractured her foot which we all thots was juz a sprain n bandage her foot up.. quite an eventful chalet cuz francine was supposed to join us for the 2nd day but she got admitted as well cuz her bp was too high n she went c-section at nite.. her baby was born on 26/04/2007.. but poor mummy n baby suffered.. mummy was under observation in the labour ward for a day cuz her bp was still high while the baby got admitted to neonate ICU yesterday cuz the baby got pneumonia.. was on ventilator.. pooor baby.. poor francine.. she suffered so much for this pregnancy.. wished i cld help her in a way or another except to brighten her up.. nothing much i cld do.. hiaz.. supposed to meet my lil sis shopping for her working clothes but was too tired after work, came hm n rest till nite den i felt bored.. joined my sis at dbl o wif her frenz n frances.. met this guy, my sis fren, nice chap.. :) he so sweet la.. offered to send all of us hm n actually cuz it was raining as well.. but the problem was he stayed at the west, frances stayed at the north n me in the east.. i felt so bad.. but overall it was fun last nite cuz i simply enjoyed dancing.. haha.. but for right now, tink i better faster go n finish my assignment.. sch starting tmr again.. so boring.. hopefully i can finish off by tonite den i can go tanning tmr.. i juz miss the sun n my tann..
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
oh i havent been blogging for the past few days.. didnt feel like blogging.. well where shall i start.. erm friday 20/4/07.. was still sick.. stayed at hm the whole day.. didnt eat much either.. was juz watching my taiwanese drame (de hospital).. it juz makes me reflect on my hospital.. does such politics really happen? i meant der's definitely politics wherever u work but is it really dat bad? i really hate politics.. y cant we juz help each other n not cut each other's throat.. anywae dat's juz how realistic this world has become.. besides the show, i was so excited abt meeting my sec sch mates whom i know for 12 yrs n whom i havent meet for 8 yrs.. been tinking whole day how each & everyone of them would haf change..
met jeremy (kwok yuen) first juz outside balaclava.. he's so suave.. haha.. he used to wear specs n braces.. abit nerdy at time in class but look at him now.. haha.. too bad u r taken, otherwise i might work on u.. haha.. talking abt it.. thot i'm always late wif my appts.. instead everyone else was late.. i was like the earliest.. pretty unusual.. haha.. didnt expect bala to b so packed.. while waiting for celine n her beau to arrive, jeremy n me were hanging ard, catching up n looking for seats.. while we were all still waiting for seats, happen to c bernard (dinesh's fren) who got a table right under our nose when we were waiting right in front of him.. haha.. anywae he was still kind enuff to offer us a seat.. haha.. slowly one by one appeared.. marcus, joachim, shijian & xinguang.. actually all of them still look the same except a little more matured now as compared to last time.. i really had a great time talking abt how stupid each n everyone of us were in the past.. but wat i really missed wif this grp was the time i spent wif celine.. when we were very close.. goin to her plc after sch, hanging der till late nite den her mum will send me to the causeway where i'll take a bus across n get my dad to pick me up.. i really had alot of fun..
after which i hitch a ride frm celine n went over to dbl-o to look for frances n cat.. well in way cuz "glad" was celebrating his bday.. by the time i appeared, he's almost der already la.. (like drunk).. was pretty tired, it's more of the flu bug was getting the best out of me.. but still.. after the club closed, frances, cat n me went for supper.. dat was like my first proper meal for the whole day.. actually we were kinda waiting for george n his staffs to finish n close shop n adjourned to st james.. been der once but dun really like de plc.. n in a way it reminded me of someone who was supposed to pick me n my frenz up frm der but in de end, fly me kite.. wateva.. was kinda getting bored over der.. no guys to oogle.. nothing to do.. n by the time i got home was like 6am n for godness sake, i gotta work at 1pm.. thank god i survived thru work n in fact wasnt even tired..
22/4/07 ~ Sunday (DB gathering)
after all dat, it was still early, n mel got her car already n we decided to do smthg which i've been wanting to do.. i wanna see him n get back my stuff.. went back to mel's plc n sneak out wif the car.. took a drive to his plc.. though it was far frm mel's plc but we had plenty of time dat nite.. i dun deny the fact i still wanna see him again n the fact dat i missed him n also the fact dat i've been very miserable for the past 2mths.. msg him, he dun reply den fine, down we go.. took a spin at his plc's carpark - tested mel's driving skill on a multi-story carpark.. nope.. his car's not der.. not home yet.. but the thot of seeing him again kinda frighten me cuz i dun know wat to expect.. take my things n juz go n i wanna find out wat really happen this period when he mia? told mel let's go back.. went onto the expressway n u-turn back again.. we were crazy..
waited at his blk.. somehow or another, i caught a glimsp of him returning hm.. looks like the way he walk but not sure but i still tink it's him.. went for a second round at the carpark n yes, we saw his car.. mel parked besides him.. she was worried whether if her parking was straight but dat was the last thing i was bothered wif.. suddenly so many things went thru my mind.. approached his plc.. no wanting to disturb his parents but not sure wat to do cuz he didnt replied even after we msg him dat we r outside his plc.. i felt so timid.. a feeling which i nvr felt before overwhelmed me.. like we r some kind of thieves cuz i forgot which flr he stayed n seems like we were playing wif the lift.. my mind juz went blank n i really dun know wat to speak to him when we c face to face.. instead i told mel:"gal, u help me to take my things can?" i dun wan to see him.. n seriously, i was having tachycardia, blood was like gushing all inside my body..
oh no.. someone opened the door.. it was his mum.. i was like hiding at the lift der, i heard footsteps.. he's approaching.. shld i say anything.. too shock to c him.. i didnt even look at him most of the time.. my eyes was so focused on my footsteps.. took my things back without even saying anything.. mel was like asking me to talk to him but my mind totally black-out on him.. wat shld i say, wat shld i ask.. do i really wanna hear the answer? i really dun know.. ended up i got mel to talk to him n yet she didnt managed to find out anything too.. i was really upset & disappointed but i juz dun know wat to do..
got his msg early in the morning..
"hi gal, it has been awhile, hope u r ddoin fine. i tried, but mayb i jus don lov u enough. i jus can't accept pr mayb the idea of havin to commit in a r/s(relationship), in another word, i'm jus not ready. Pls don b mistaken is bcas of other parties (but the fact was, it is). not respondin is juz my character, cas i don knw hw to express my tots. i jus nd time for myself. u take gd care. i'm sorry." upon getting this msg, i was alrite, in fact it felt a heavy stone juz drop off my chest..
juz somehow or another i happen to hear frm a fren whom he mentioned to the last nite, dat he has a gf.. i was caught in surprise.. guess it's juz stupid me who believed him time n time n again.. but yet got cheated again n again.. besides upset & disappointed.. i was mad.. i cldnt focus at work.. thank god i didnt kill any patients.. i chose to believe u.. all these while i nvr hope for anything.. i'm happy juz to stay as ur fren.. but u juz haf to toy wif the feelings i haf for u.. i muz admit LOVE is BLIND.. i was really blinded.. (damnit)
i know i muz stay strong now.. at least dat's my frenz say but i'm really very tired of being strong, being independent, acting like a clown in front of my frenz even though i'm upset.. i hate making pple worried abt me.. hate pple getting upset cuz of wat's happening to me.. it makes me feel so useless.. i dun ask for much except for a happy surrounding.. but right now i juz cant do it anymore.. can i juz let everything down? can i juz b wat i feel for once? i'm really getting very tired.. juz so tired.. so tired till i juz dun wanna try anymore.. so tired till i juz wanna let everything go.. so tired till i wished i can slp foreva.. juz so tired of trying.. juz so tired of my life.. really very tired of it.. i'm TIRED!!!
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
i'm damn suay (unlucky) la.. i as so grogy when i woke up this noon, obviously the floor was wet n i saw it but somehow or another i juz managed to slip & fall.. how fanstatic.. it really hurts n pain radiated to my upper back.. hiaz.. gotta nurse myself back so dat i can go out n meet my frenz which i did.. yippy.. i'll feel really bad if i can meet them.. being sick is not an excuse to me though.. crazy bitch.. haha..
while waiting for my frenz to turn up 2 guys came up to me for donations.. i was listening to my mp3 and msging on my hp n i rejected u, OBVIOUSLY i'm not interested.. anywae thk god casey appeared in time n we juz walked away.. haha.. sorry guys but i'm juz so not in the mood.. anywae back to my date wif my frenz.. met suping, casey & cheryl.. i'm juz so happy to see them.. the last i met them was in the hospital n i still can remember the taste of the sandwich dat casey made for me.. it's juz so nice.. hee.. :P
guess where we decided to go for dinner - tony romas.. the food was supposed to b nice but it doesnt taste dat good anymore.. steak dat we ordered as medium was like well-done.. so so chewy.. very good chewing exercise for the mouth.. n wif mr food critic, casey.. haha.. he was like complaining non-stop abt the food.. haha.. but i dun blame him cuz it really sux.. i would haf rather juz ate at mac instead.. cheap n nice.. hee.. hee.. but i really had alot of fun wif them.. after which we adjourned to swensen.. kinda like we passed der n i was like shall we go for earthquake? n dat's right, here we go.. the ice-cream was fantastic though i was having cold n cough but who cares, right?!
wtd to meet frances after dat but i felt quite tired after the ice-cream.. tink it's the illness makes me feel so lethargic.. hiaz.. though i'm off tmr as well but tink i beta come hm n rest which i did.. i'm gonna pop some pills b4 i go to bed later.. oh n my poor 'lil sis called me n cried to me.. she misses all her sec sch mates whom most r of different JC frm her.. so poor thing.. well, life is never perfect n u makes frenz everywhere.. u can always arrange to meet ur frenz some day juz like wat i did.. gonna meet my sec sch mates tmr of some i havent since sec sch.. omg, cant imagine wat kind of changes everyone will haf.. i'm so excited.. tink i shld b in bed n make sure i'm all good to meet them tmr.. good nitez..
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
it was a bright & sunny afternoon.. (all dressed up for party tonite wif shirin & stella @ insomnia.. supposed to b a farewell party for stella but sorry babe, i missed it.. remember to come back spore more often k though i know it's abit far..) but who knows de moment i came out of the train, it was raining heavily.. it really caught me by surprise cuz i was cold n for the first time i didnt bring my sweater out which i usually does..
anywae i had a bad day cuz my running nose juz got so bad.. can u imagine wearing the mask and ur mucus was like gonna drip anytime.. damn disgusting la.. sneezing the whole time like the whole ward can hear me.. guess i look like a reindeer wif a red nose.. yippy xmas time.. (like real)
was supposed to b out but de moment i finish work, i juz took a cab hm wif my colleagues.. hm sweet hm.. popped some pills n tink it's taking its effect on me already.. shall go to bed soon.. before dat, mel msg tdy.. she's so funny la.. "finally finish 1 paper. not sure hw i'll flare cuz totally mental block. i really like e gift. at least i can flip open 2 c every nw n den. thanks!" i'm glad u like it babe.. no idea wat i can do to help u de-stress alittle except this little action of mine.. dun worry i'm sure u'll make it thru.. :)
siyu was very sweet as well.. out of the blue she juz said this to me "jus wan 2 tell u. if u like the guy jus be with him. happiness is very important 2 a gal. wat ever decision u make, u will alway have my full support." isnt she sweet.. i told her at the moment my heart still haf him and noone else.. it's not easy to forget someone juz like dat cuz he has given me alot of sweet memories.. for i only like to keep sweet memories n let the bad ones float away or b gone wif the wind.........
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it was a slow day.. woke up like almost 2pm.. crazy man.. i've been slping so much recently.. wonder wat has got into me.. first thing i got up was "quick i need to get melissa's gift done" to the photo shop first and get my photos.. but i took a really stupid pix of myself cuz i really needa a pix of myself saying "happy birthday"
u'll know wat i mean by stupid looking rite.. haha.. anywae dat's juz me.. love it or leave it.. haha.. after dat i rushed hm to get my work started.. while doin up my gift for melissa.. chatted wif this really sweet guy call keith (someone shirin intro to me.. :P) was really nice chatting to him.. though it slowed my work but it was a beautiful afternoon wif the rain.. :)
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Monday, April 16, 2007
i dread goin back to work after a wk of leaves n esp. on a monday morning.. cuz monday morning is always expected to b busy but thank god, my juniors r so the powerful one.. so i needed to do was juz my in-charge work.. fantastic.. tks alot guys.. u guys were fantastic.. had sue ard as well.. it's kinda fun working in isolation.. dun mind being isolated away cuz i always haf alot of fun wif my colleagues.. but i receive a bad new the moment i arrived, one of my patients whom I've nursed for a very long time passed away.. so sad.. he was so confused at one time dat i had problem nursing him den he became so well dat he could actually wat shift i worked the day b4.. telling me n colleagues alot of stuff abt himself.. his sons were nice pple too though some didnt like them cuz they asked alot of questions.. but kinda expected, right, esp. wif ur loved ones..
was hanging ard in the ward for awhile cuz sister tay wtd to pass me some dressings for my scars.. she's such a sweetheart.. i totally agree wif the rest dat she's a good wound care nurse.. she's juz so knowledgable in her area.. i salute u man, sister.. met verine (my 'lil sis) @ TM.. went n get smthg done for a gf's bday which is like on wed.. she's been stressed wif sch n i juz wanna do smthg nice to chill her out n probably hope it'll help her de-stress abit so as to go further.. :)
overall, it's a slow monday, nothing much fantastic.. hope it'll b a beta day tmr but guess i'll b busy preparing for my fren's bday surprise tmr though.. i really hope dat she'll really love it.. :) cheers to a better tomorrow!!
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Sunday, April 15, 2007
der goes another wk, der goes my annual leave.. it's been really long since i last came in to blog.. thot i will do it more often but i doubt it.. anywae this was how i spent my wk..
monday n tuesday was in msia for my maternal granny's funeral.. i was
pretty upset cuz my mum cant see her mum for the last time due to some personal reason.. sad.. sad.. though it is tough but my family will preserve.. talking abt it, when we r doin some traditional offering.. smthg interesting happen.. while we were burning the house, incence paper n stuff.. not caught by the naked eyes.. it was this green lighting which was shown on one of my relatives hp.. he kinda tooka video-clip of it.. i've absolutely no idea how to explain it scientifically.. hiaz.. though i'm not close to this granny but i used to play alot at her plc.. u'll definitely b missed my me..
wednesday was out partying n as usual at dbl-o n as wat i expected, i cldnt wake up for an exam on thurs.. thank god it's juz smthg i'm doin out of my free time so i didnt feel any stress at all.. imagine if it was my degree paper n i missed the exam, i'll probably juz drop down n cry.. though i need to pay like $80 for the re-test, i'm fine wif it cuz my "bro" kinda said he'll pay for me.. tks bro.. haha..
friday was fantastic.. sch was fun as usual cuz der's always jasmine to keep me company.. we always haf lotsa fun in class.. well, mayb it's kinda i entertain her wif my artistic picture.. haha.. rite after class, kelly n me went down town.. the taxi queue was super long outside sch, as usual being nice pple, we queued behind everyone.. but der was this particular cab dat turn back to pick up passenger.. since we were the last in the queue and noone wtd to board the cab so kelly n me went for it.. it was juz so coincidentally dat we board her uncle's cab.. do u know wat it meant now? we had a free ride to town to meet tommy (kelly's bf frm finland).. we had dinner at shaw centre.. oooo........ i love pastamania.. afterwhich we head down to orchard hotel - ballymoon where shirin sings.. i simply love this babe to the core.. she's fantastic.. she sings well..
fun to hang out wif.. most importantly, i've known her for like 10over yrs.. i really miss her alot.. i juz enjoy hearing her sing.. oh, den i met stella, shirin's fren.. a lady pretty in pink.. after shirin's last set, we went down to insomnia.. my first time der but dat plc was crazy.. talking abt dat, we had primero (super cute dude) & candice (super pretty hot babe).. met nana (singapore idol contestant) - she's juz so full of energy.. overall rating of insomnia - craziness.. haha.. after which i followed shirin to this plc called pump room.. another band was playing.. they were good as well esp when they played my fav song: sweet child o' mine.. it was alot of fun.. by then, like 2am in the morning, both shirin n me we were zonked out by all the craziness, we decided to juz chill out n chit chat @ coffee club.. took lotsa stupid pix.. having fun laughing at how stupid we look n of cuz de food was fantastic.. time passes so fast.. by then it was 4am where the cafe was closing.. we had no choice but to bid farewell to each other..
Saturday: slack at home the whole afternoon.. went over to lien's plc for SART gathering..
we had bbq at his plc.. his plc is really big but i didnt haf a chance to explore it cuz i paiseh to ask for permission.. haha.. den my good bro tim came n pick me n we went orchard to meet the gals at swensen.. they changed the venue but i didnt know so both tim n me ended up chilling at rouge outdoor.. another good plc too.. waited for my fren to finish work n for him to come over n join us.. he brought along a gal.. up to his sleeve again.. haha.. but dat's juz him n i dun care cuz he's a good fren n a nice guy to hang out wif.. haha.. we headed to dbl-o.. siyu met us der.. the 5 of us ended playing drinking games.. it was really fun.. frances, my buddy came n join me too.. wat came as a surprise was the whole gang of my colleagues came n joined me too.. it was really good cuz i miss them alot for i havent seen them for the whole wk.. it was fun partying wif them too.. well guess it's juz me, i cant survive without my frenz, for they r the one who keep me goin n to this far.. love u guys to the max.. MUACKKKKKKKKKKK........
Sunday: family day for me.. woke up really late like 2pm.. slack at home den went out for dinner.. my aunt wtd me to accompany her to go shopping after dinner at tampines mall.. though i was tired but i still went.. anywae it's juz another sunday dat's gonna end n i'm all hyped up for work..
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onder wat has got into me.. first thing i got up was "quick i need to get melissa's gift done" to the photo shop first and get my photos.. but i took a really stupid pix of myself cuz i really needa a pix of myself saying "happy birthday" 
us.. n dinner was ready, sorry to say but the crayfish looked too tempting for me to eat any other food.. haha.. anywae by the time i met anuar was like almost 9pm.. the moment i got to taka was like quick i need to get my cake frm bakerzin but my choc amer was sold out n got smthg else.. not too bad also la.. poor bro havent had dinner so we settled for orchard swensen.. wtd my usual sticky chewy choc but saw smthg new: chocolate overload.. but it still lose to my sticky chewy choc.. i still love dat the most.. tink choc fondue is the best.. oh no.. i'm confused.. haha.. wateva it is, i simply love chocolate.. :D
pretty upset cuz my mum cant see her mum for the last time due to some personal reason.. sad.. sad.. though it is tough but my family will preserve.. talking abt it, when we r doin some traditional offering.. smthg interesting happen.. while we were burning the house, incence paper n stuff.. not caught by the naked eyes.. it was this green lighting which was shown on one of my relatives hp.. he kinda tooka video-clip of it.. i've absolutely no idea how to explain it scientifically.. hiaz.. though i'm not close to this granny but i used to play alot at her plc.. u'll definitely b missed my me..
fun to hang out wif.. most importantly, i've known her for like 10over yrs.. i really miss her alot.. i juz enjoy hearing her sing.. oh, den i met stella, shirin's fren.. a lady pretty in pink.. after shirin's last set, we went down to insomnia.. my first time der but dat plc was crazy.. talking abt dat, we had primero (super cute dude) & candice (super pretty hot babe).. met nana (singapore idol contestant) - she's juz so full of energy.. overall rating of insomnia - craziness.. haha.. after which i followed shirin to this plc called pump room.. another band was playing.. they were good as well esp when they played my fav song: sweet child o' mine.. it was alot of fun.. by then, like 2am in the morning, both shirin n me we were zonked out by all the craziness, we decided to juz chill out n chit chat @ coffee club.. took lotsa stupid pix.. having fun laughing at how stupid we look n of cuz de food was fantastic.. time passes so fast.. by then it was 4am where the cafe was closing.. we had no choice but to bid farewell to each other..
we had bbq at his plc.. his plc is really big but i didnt haf a chance to explore it cuz i paiseh to ask for permission.. haha.. den my good bro tim came n pick me n we went orchard to meet the gals at swensen.. they changed the venue but i didnt know so both tim n me ended up chilling at rouge outdoor.. another good plc too.. waited for my fren to finish work n for him to come over n join us.. he brought along a gal.. up to his sleeve again.. haha.. but dat's juz him n i dun care cuz he's a good fren n a nice guy to hang out wif.. haha.. we headed to dbl-o.. siyu met us der.. the 5 of us ended playing drinking games.. it was really fun.. frances, my buddy came n join me too.. wat came as a surprise was the whole gang of my colleagues came n joined me too.. it was really good cuz i miss them alot for i havent seen them for the whole wk.. it was fun partying wif them too.. well guess it's juz me, i cant survive without my frenz, for they r the one who keep me goin n to this far.. love u guys to the max.. MUACKKKKKKKKKKK........
