de crying scene of a mother & a daughter greeted me when i arrived in de hospital.. i felt funny but it didnt dwell on me much.. guess i haf seen too much of such scenes.. haf it turned me cold-hearted?

saw two rooms screened when i arrived at de ward.. saw a few pple standing outside rm17.. i didnt bother to ask much.. while waiting for report to b passed.. one of my colleagues was passing remarks dat they were very busy in de nite.. they had like 2 deaths within a shift.. dat's really terrible.. but i was de least interested till she mentioned abt a 25 yr old patient in rm17 dat passed away because of dengue fever.. i was like tinking, it's really very young for a patient to pass away because of dengue fever.. de other colleagues got interested.. they asked her if de patient was frm a&e.. she replied no.. subsequently de conversion was just between de two of us..

diana: de patient was not frm a&e?
colleague: nope..
d: where's de patient frm?
c: transferred in..
d: frm where?
c: wd 73..
d: r u serious?
c: yup..
d: de patient really frm wd73? came in for dengue fever? i haf a fren who was admitted in wd73 for dengue fever..
c: is ur fren a male or female?
d: male..
c: is ur fren fat?
d: he's quite big size..
c: wat's ur fren's name?
( my mind went blank for a moment.. wat's my fren's name?)
d: ian..
c: yah, his name is ian..
d: u muz b kidding..

this cannot b true.. it cannot b my fren.. this is too sudden.. i muz see him.. cannot b him.. went into de rm but de family members were saying their prayers for him.. his face was covered.. i cant see him.. is it really him? wat's ian's full name? this guy looks like ian.. (his bro) this is not true.. i was so shocked dat i was like trembling, not because i was cold but i was afraid of de truth.. i checked thru my admission book.. i found his details.. i called grace, grace didnt pick up.. i called sam, sam didnt pick up.. god, i'm left wif last option, fanny.. if she doesnt picked up as well, i haf no idea who i shld turn to.. i muz tell someone.. this news is too heart-breaking for me to handle.. i cant do it.. great, i finally got thru fanny, woke her up frm her slp.. was asking her for ian's full name instead i tink she gave me hers.. for a moment i was relieved, it's not ian's name.. so i checked wif her again.. wat's ian's full name? ian ng hsin ye.. omg.. does he stay in wilkinson rd? yes.. is he born on 28th august 1981? yes.. my heart sanked right to de bottom.. this cannot b.. it really cannot b him.. but somehow or another it's too much of a coincidence, isnt it? but still i haf to tell de truth.. ian has passed away this morning.. wat a devastating news in de morning before i even started work.. i cldnt focus.. i was trembling.. but i stil didnt believe it was ian.. i muz see him otherwise i wun believe it.. when i finally got de chance, i took a peek, omg it was ian wif de tube coming out of his mouth.. he doesnt look like him anymore.. is this really my fren ian? cannot b? where's de chatty ian? where's de ian dat will smile till de eyes only revealed a line? where's de ian dat will blushed when he talks abt esther? where's de ian dat encourage me when i met wif an accident? when i saw de mortuary team pushing a trolley in, i really wanna cry.. ian's leaving.. though i dun wanna c him leave but i wanna give a hand.. i helped my colleagues n i pushed him into de trolley.. i saw him leaving de ward.. i couldnt take it anymore.. i juz broke down.. though i'm not close wif him but somehow or another i've grown attached to sart.. i juz couldnt hold de tears back when my colleagues asked me abt him.. i wanna cry my heart out but i cant.. i'm at work.. damn, y muz i b at work.. y muz he die in my icu? y muz i b de first among de grp to receive his death? it's too devastating.. i replied sam's call after dat, de more we talked abt it, de more we cldnt help it n we both broke down.. it's too sudden for any of us to take..

i spoke to ian last thurs.. he told me he's got suspected dengue n was tinking of which hospital to get admitted to if he really gets it.. i was like come sgh la.. i work der, easier for me to visit u.. he asked me where got more "piao liang" mei mei? of cuz sgh la.. den he told me alrite den i shall decide for sgh.. great.. received msg frm sam dat he got admitted to sgh last evening.. how bad can a dengue b so decided to visit him tdy.. morever i still msg him telling dat: "mr ian, u really went 2 sgh.. anywae how r u feeling? am working tmr, visit u tmr k.."shld haf called him since he didnt reply.. but it's too late now.. i'm sorry ian, mayb u shldnt haf come to sgh.. if u didnt come mayb it wasnt this bad.. mayb i'll still get to talk to u..

spoke to Dr Elizabeth Oei.. she came to know it was my fren n she told me wateva has happen.. ian came in since morning.. he was resuscitated wif fluids when he was in a&e.. part of dengue fever management.. by de time he got to de ward, de mo dat reviewed him, somehow or another changed his drip regime.. by de time dr oei reviewed him was already 11plus.. he was already very ill.. she decided to bring him down to micu for closer monitoring.. bloods was taken on arrival.. it was horrendous.. LFT was hay-wired.. hematocrit and Hb were elevated.. platelets were low.. they started fluid resus for him again.. he felt better.. but at abt 3am, he complain of chest pain and he went down-hill very very fast.. de whole icu team resus him for 90mins till ian's aunt call it a day.. dr oei felt dat a dengue fever shldnt haf juz taken a 25yr old guy juz like dat.. she decided to put it as a coroner's case.. she was juz being impartial whether if he was given de rite amt of fluid, could it haf made a difference in his bld result? but everything is too late now.. ian is already gone.. i prayed for miracle but it didnt happen.. he's really gone.. but i really wanna know wat's de post-mortem diagnosis.. if he's really been mis-managed, i dun tink i wanna stay in a hospital dat took my fren's life away.. it's juz way too over-whelming for me.. i'm still trying to get over de death of ian.. goodbye ian, u'll b greatly missed by me.. de lord will take good care of u.. like wat sam said.. he has made plans for u.. may u rest in peace..

a DeViL iN an AnGeL dIsgUiSe..


"you put the pink back in the sky,
you insert the rainbow in my eyes,
you're that silver lining in my prayer,
painting colours everywhere."


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romantic and charming
easygoing and sociable
idealistic and peaceable
indecisive and changeable
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-Violence
-Injustice
-Brutishness
-Being a slave to fashion

de crying scene of a mother & a daughter greeted me when i arrived in de hospital.. i felt funny but it didnt dwell on me much.. guess i haf seen too much of such scenes.. haf it turned me cold-hearted?

saw two rooms screened when i arrived at de ward.. saw a few pple standing outside rm17.. i didnt bother to ask much.. while waiting for report to b passed.. one of my colleagues was passing remarks dat they were very busy in de nite.. they had like 2 deaths within a shift.. dat's really terrible.. but i was de least interested till she mentioned abt a 25 yr old patient in rm17 dat passed away because of dengue fever.. i was like tinking, it's really very young for a patient to pass away because of dengue fever.. de other colleagues got interested.. they asked her if de patient was frm a&e.. she replied no.. subsequently de conversion was just between de two of us..

diana: de patient was not frm a&e?
colleague: nope..
d: where's de patient frm?
c: transferred in..
d: frm where?
c: wd 73..
d: r u serious?
c: yup..
d: de patient really frm wd73? came in for dengue fever? i haf a fren who was admitted in wd73 for dengue fever..
c: is ur fren a male or female?
d: male..
c: is ur fren fat?
d: he's quite big size..
c: wat's ur fren's name?
( my mind went blank for a moment.. wat's my fren's name?)
d: ian..
c: yah, his name is ian..
d: u muz b kidding..

this cannot b true.. it cannot b my fren.. this is too sudden.. i muz see him.. cannot b him.. went into de rm but de family members were saying their prayers for him.. his face was covered.. i cant see him.. is it really him? wat's ian's full name? this guy looks like ian.. (his bro) this is not true.. i was so shocked dat i was like trembling, not because i was cold but i was afraid of de truth.. i checked thru my admission book.. i found his details.. i called grace, grace didnt pick up.. i called sam, sam didnt pick up.. god, i'm left wif last option, fanny.. if she doesnt picked up as well, i haf no idea who i shld turn to.. i muz tell someone.. this news is too heart-breaking for me to handle.. i cant do it.. great, i finally got thru fanny, woke her up frm her slp.. was asking her for ian's full name instead i tink she gave me hers.. for a moment i was relieved, it's not ian's name.. so i checked wif her again.. wat's ian's full name? ian ng hsin ye.. omg.. does he stay in wilkinson rd? yes.. is he born on 28th august 1981? yes.. my heart sanked right to de bottom.. this cannot b.. it really cannot b him.. but somehow or another it's too much of a coincidence, isnt it? but still i haf to tell de truth.. ian has passed away this morning.. wat a devastating news in de morning before i even started work.. i cldnt focus.. i was trembling.. but i stil didnt believe it was ian.. i muz see him otherwise i wun believe it.. when i finally got de chance, i took a peek, omg it was ian wif de tube coming out of his mouth.. he doesnt look like him anymore.. is this really my fren ian? cannot b? where's de chatty ian? where's de ian dat will smile till de eyes only revealed a line? where's de ian dat will blushed when he talks abt esther? where's de ian dat encourage me when i met wif an accident? when i saw de mortuary team pushing a trolley in, i really wanna cry.. ian's leaving.. though i dun wanna c him leave but i wanna give a hand.. i helped my colleagues n i pushed him into de trolley.. i saw him leaving de ward.. i couldnt take it anymore.. i juz broke down.. though i'm not close wif him but somehow or another i've grown attached to sart.. i juz couldnt hold de tears back when my colleagues asked me abt him.. i wanna cry my heart out but i cant.. i'm at work.. damn, y muz i b at work.. y muz he die in my icu? y muz i b de first among de grp to receive his death? it's too devastating.. i replied sam's call after dat, de more we talked abt it, de more we cldnt help it n we both broke down.. it's too sudden for any of us to take..

i spoke to ian last thurs.. he told me he's got suspected dengue n was tinking of which hospital to get admitted to if he really gets it.. i was like come sgh la.. i work der, easier for me to visit u.. he asked me where got more "piao liang" mei mei? of cuz sgh la.. den he told me alrite den i shall decide for sgh.. great.. received msg frm sam dat he got admitted to sgh last evening.. how bad can a dengue b so decided to visit him tdy.. morever i still msg him telling dat: "mr ian, u really went 2 sgh.. anywae how r u feeling? am working tmr, visit u tmr k.."shld haf called him since he didnt reply.. but it's too late now.. i'm sorry ian, mayb u shldnt haf come to sgh.. if u didnt come mayb it wasnt this bad.. mayb i'll still get to talk to u..

spoke to Dr Elizabeth Oei.. she came to know it was my fren n she told me wateva has happen.. ian came in since morning.. he was resuscitated wif fluids when he was in a&e.. part of dengue fever management.. by de time he got to de ward, de mo dat reviewed him, somehow or another changed his drip regime.. by de time dr oei reviewed him was already 11plus.. he was already very ill.. she decided to bring him down to micu for closer monitoring.. bloods was taken on arrival.. it was horrendous.. LFT was hay-wired.. hematocrit and Hb were elevated.. platelets were low.. they started fluid resus for him again.. he felt better.. but at abt 3am, he complain of chest pain and he went down-hill very very fast.. de whole icu team resus him for 90mins till ian's aunt call it a day.. dr oei felt dat a dengue fever shldnt haf juz taken a 25yr old guy juz like dat.. she decided to put it as a coroner's case.. she was juz being impartial whether if he was given de rite amt of fluid, could it haf made a difference in his bld result? but everything is too late now.. ian is already gone.. i prayed for miracle but it didnt happen.. he's really gone.. but i really wanna know wat's de post-mortem diagnosis.. if he's really been mis-managed, i dun tink i wanna stay in a hospital dat took my fren's life away.. it's juz way too over-whelming for me.. i'm still trying to get over de death of ian.. goodbye ian, u'll b greatly missed by me.. de lord will take good care of u.. like wat sam said.. he has made plans for u.. may u rest in peace..

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