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Saturday, July 21, 2007
i'm upset by not my own prob but my buddy.. for i tink she has turned to someone dat i dun know.. someone i nvr thought would injure herself so dat someone dat she loves or care who turn around and take a look at her.. for dat i muz comment i havent come across a close fren of mine as silly as her.. this is de stupidest thing a gal should do to get her love back.. is it worth it? do u really tink he'll turn ard n take a look at u again? if really do, den in de first plc he shldnt haf allow u to hurt or injure urself.. u might not wan to live or watsoeva, but wateva u gonna do, take a good look ard urself.. how many pple ard u actually care abt u? de purpose of u injuring urself it's bcuz u wan him to look back at u.. but instead of achieving ur goal, subconciously, u haf hurt ur families & frenz dat r all ard u.. pls i beg u, promise me dat u'll nvr do anything dat stupid again.. i know u gonna go thru a very rough patch.. like wat i haf promised u b4, it's a promise i'll nvr break.. we r all gonna go thru this wif u, so fear not instead look ahead and i'm very sure u'll get out of this mess soon..
had a good dinner wif mel on thurs nite after lesson.. went humble hse n look for david.. after dinner we adjorned to new asia bar.. for a moment i thot i was in a foreign country.. it was packed wif ang mohs.. it doesnt matter to me.. was looking at de view frm way up der.. omg how i wish i can b der during ndp.. i'm sure i'll catch a good glimpse of de fireworks.. morever this yr, der's gonna b much more firework than before.. for a moment i'm really praying hard for a dream to come true.. i hoping to catch this magnificent moment wif someone whom i feel special for.. it's always very romantic to catch firework wif dat special someone.. but will it happen? well it might not happen now but i'm always hopeful for dat special moment to come.. to tink of it.. if dat special someone propose to me during a firework display, i guess without any hesistation i wld agree to dat proposal..it would probably b de happiest & most romantic moment in my life..
had cheese fondue wif jason & jasmine on fri nite.. met mel & france after dinner n by chance met anuar & gang..
i told my plan abt goin oversea to work to someone but this someone did not respect by decision of sharing this plan wif someone.. like i said it was juz a plan but he kinda announce it to everyone telling everyone dat i'm leaving.. but i haf yet to confirm.. utimately it's gonna b my decision.. mayb i might not wan to leave but u talking abt it really made me feel frustrated & irritated.. it was juz a plan.. a plan i dun mean to share wif many.. by chance tell u abt it and u asked me for more details.. oh my gosh.. i really dun know wat to say.. sometimes staying here really pushes me to de edge.. sometimes i feel dat i've got no room to breathe.. sometimes i feel frustrated but i haf noone to go to.. not dat i haf noone to go to but i dun like my trouble to b elses' one.. sometimes i wld rather myself to b upset than to c my families & frenz upset.. pls god teach me wat to do.. der always bound to haf changes to my plan.. does it mean dat i'm not focused enuff? wateva i'm doin, is it not good enuff? do i try to pls everyone too much? do i not love everyone enuff? but y do i feel upset or empty within myself sometimes? is it a better option dat i shld go? to a new plc, new environment and start all over again? frankly speaking, if i need to go, i probably wld haf left long time ago.. so wat's holding me back? families? frenz? i really dun know.. for a moment i'm confused now..
y when one is feeling down, she'll feel even more down? for dat's when all de sad moment starts floating up in her mind? nothing seems to b goin rite.. kinda stuck wif sch.. y of all time, i haf to fail two modules during my last semester? i feel really sucky having to go sch and re-doing my assignment.. re-sit for exams.. y when i'm very enthu to train, my coach became so busy? or is it something wrong wif him? y when i'm happy at my current home, my grandma muz tell me things mayb i shldnt haf know? y does one haf to give u faces when they r not happy wif u? y cant they juz tell u nicely? y muz they gimme attitude? did i do smthg wrong to deserve all these? if i do, pls let me know.. haf my behaviour or words upset anyone? if i do, pls tell me.. if u find it tiring for me to stay here, pls let me know.. for i dun wish to trouble pple.. if u dun like we share our stuffs, pls tell me.. for i'm glad not sharing.. if u dun like to talk to me or see me, pls tell me, i can jolly-well disappear into thin air.. y muz life b so complicated? y muz life b so difficult? y muz life b so messy? y muz life b so disappointing? y do i always feel miserable? y do i haf to wear a mask everyday? y do i find life torturing? y do i feel like so stressing? isnt der anythign dat i can do right? y do i get blame for smthg dat happen long time ago.. y do u haf to bring up de same old thing when we quarrel? y do u haf to bring up de past whenever we talk? does everyone do dat? y do human being need to quarrel? y cant human being juz live happily wif each other? y cant life juz b a little more near perfect? y do we haf to go through so much? is dat wat other always meant by experience? y muz we experience sadness and anger? cant it always b happiness? isnt it better?
♥ princ3ss_di ♥
a DeViL iN an AnGeL dIsgUiSe..
"you put the pink back in the sky,
you insert the rainbow in my eyes,
you're that silver lining in my prayer,
painting colours everywhere."
diplomatic and urbane
romantic and charming
easygoing and sociable
idealistic and peaceable
indecisive and changeable
gullible and easily infuenced
flirtatious and self-indulgent
LIKES
♥The finer things in life
♥Sharing
♥conviviality
♥Gentleness
DISLIKES
-Violence
-Injustice
-Brutishness
-Being a slave to fashion
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Saturday, July 21, 2007
i'm upset by not my own prob but my buddy.. for i tink she has turned to someone dat i dun know.. someone i nvr thought would injure herself so dat someone dat she loves or care who turn around and take a look at her.. for dat i muz comment i havent come across a close fren of mine as silly as her.. this is de stupidest thing a gal should do to get her love back.. is it worth it? do u really tink he'll turn ard n take a look at u again? if really do, den in de first plc he shldnt haf allow u to hurt or injure urself.. u might not wan to live or watsoeva, but wateva u gonna do, take a good look ard urself.. how many pple ard u actually care abt u? de purpose of u injuring urself it's bcuz u wan him to look back at u.. but instead of achieving ur goal, subconciously, u haf hurt ur families & frenz dat r all ard u.. pls i beg u, promise me dat u'll nvr do anything dat stupid again.. i know u gonna go thru a very rough patch.. like wat i haf promised u b4, it's a promise i'll nvr break.. we r all gonna go thru this wif u, so fear not instead look ahead and i'm very sure u'll get out of this mess soon..
had a good dinner wif mel on thurs nite after lesson.. went humble hse n look for david.. after dinner we adjorned to new asia bar.. for a moment i thot i was in a foreign country.. it was packed wif ang mohs.. it doesnt matter to me.. was looking at de view frm way up der.. omg how i wish i can b der during ndp.. i'm sure i'll catch a good glimpse of de fireworks.. morever this yr, der's gonna b much more firework than before.. for a moment i'm really praying hard for a dream to come true.. i hoping to catch this magnificent moment wif someone whom i feel special for.. it's always very romantic to catch firework wif dat special someone.. but will it happen? well it might not happen now but i'm always hopeful for dat special moment to come.. to tink of it.. if dat special someone propose to me during a firework display, i guess without any hesistation i wld agree to dat proposal..it would probably b de happiest & most romantic moment in my life..
had cheese fondue wif jason & jasmine on fri nite.. met mel & france after dinner n by chance met anuar & gang..
i told my plan abt goin oversea to work to someone but this someone did not respect by decision of sharing this plan wif someone.. like i said it was juz a plan but he kinda announce it to everyone telling everyone dat i'm leaving.. but i haf yet to confirm.. utimately it's gonna b my decision.. mayb i might not wan to leave but u talking abt it really made me feel frustrated & irritated.. it was juz a plan.. a plan i dun mean to share wif many.. by chance tell u abt it and u asked me for more details.. oh my gosh.. i really dun know wat to say.. sometimes staying here really pushes me to de edge.. sometimes i feel dat i've got no room to breathe.. sometimes i feel frustrated but i haf noone to go to.. not dat i haf noone to go to but i dun like my trouble to b elses' one.. sometimes i wld rather myself to b upset than to c my families & frenz upset.. pls god teach me wat to do.. der always bound to haf changes to my plan.. does it mean dat i'm not focused enuff? wateva i'm doin, is it not good enuff? do i try to pls everyone too much? do i not love everyone enuff? but y do i feel upset or empty within myself sometimes? is it a better option dat i shld go? to a new plc, new environment and start all over again? frankly speaking, if i need to go, i probably wld haf left long time ago.. so wat's holding me back? families? frenz? i really dun know.. for a moment i'm confused now..
y when one is feeling down, she'll feel even more down? for dat's when all de sad moment starts floating up in her mind? nothing seems to b goin rite.. kinda stuck wif sch.. y of all time, i haf to fail two modules during my last semester? i feel really sucky having to go sch and re-doing my assignment.. re-sit for exams.. y when i'm very enthu to train, my coach became so busy? or is it something wrong wif him? y when i'm happy at my current home, my grandma muz tell me things mayb i shldnt haf know? y does one haf to give u faces when they r not happy wif u? y cant they juz tell u nicely? y muz they gimme attitude? did i do smthg wrong to deserve all these? if i do, pls let me know.. haf my behaviour or words upset anyone? if i do, pls tell me.. if u find it tiring for me to stay here, pls let me know.. for i dun wish to trouble pple.. if u dun like we share our stuffs, pls tell me.. for i'm glad not sharing.. if u dun like to talk to me or see me, pls tell me, i can jolly-well disappear into thin air.. y muz life b so complicated? y muz life b so difficult? y muz life b so messy? y muz life b so disappointing? y do i always feel miserable? y do i haf to wear a mask everyday? y do i find life torturing? y do i feel like so stressing? isnt der anythign dat i can do right? y do i get blame for smthg dat happen long time ago.. y do u haf to bring up de same old thing when we quarrel? y do u haf to bring up de past whenever we talk? does everyone do dat? y do human being need to quarrel? y cant human being juz live happily wif each other? y cant life juz b a little more near perfect? y do we haf to go through so much? is dat wat other always meant by experience? y muz we experience sadness and anger? cant it always b happiness? isnt it better?
